A friend of mine who is much more cultivated got me thinking in another direction about broken friendships. I would have called them unfixable friendships but that makes it feel absolute. What my friend did, was contact another friend that she had a irreconcilable differences with. She humbly reached out unnecessarily when she was RIGHT in this situation, to make peace. I know both people and I can say with certainty that the person she reached out to is probably going to blow it off and not fully recognize the effort made by this person. Regardless, my friend is at peace and will not have any tension with person moving forward. I want to do that!!
There's something noble in doing that appeals to me, but it's really about forgetting about it and moving on. Like, really moving on... So now I'm wondering who do I talk to first to see experience this?
Lay beside me, tell me what they've done Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true If you can understand the me, than I can understand the you.
Lay beside me, under wicked sky Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through No, there's no sun shining through No, there's no sun shining
What I've felt, what I've known Turn the pages, turn the stone Behind the door, should I open it for you?
What I've felt, what I've known Sick and tired, I stand alone Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you Or are you unforgiven too?
Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone Dead sure she'll be there!
What I've felt, what I've known Turn the pages, turn the stone Behind the door, should I open it for you?
What I've felt, what I've known Sick and tired, I stand alone Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you Or are you unforgiven too?
(Solo)
Lay beside me, tell me what I've done The door is closed, so are your eyes But now I see the sun, now I see the sun Yes now I see it!
What I've felt, what I've known Turn the pages, turn the stone Behind the door, should I open it for you?
What I've felt, what I've known So sick and tired, I stand alone Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits, The one who waits for you
Oh what I've felt, what I've known Turn the pages, turn the stone Behind the door, should I open it for you? (So I dub thee unforgiven)
Oh, what I've felt Oh, what I've known!
I take this key (never free) And I bury it (never me) in you Because you're unforgiven too
We have one in our apartment now. I dreaded seeing that box because I know what video games have done to me. I'm addicted to 007 right now. I'm already checking deals for black Friday to pick up madden and nba live... after that is xbox live and then my career and social life will finally be ruined. ugh
I'm lucky that I got cool friends who have jobs at cool places and can hook it up. I played basketball at Sony Studios tonight. they took an empty studio deep within the lot and converted it into a gym. It was a lot of fun whooping those accountants ASSES. I don't think I'll get back in though. I got away with low credentials this time but that guy isn't going to take my verbal plea/waiver that I gave him... too bad because I like their set up in there.
How blessed am I that I get the opportunity to go and speak to these amazing kids and have actually listen to me. I'm first taken back by how much these kids already know about the environment and how focused their education is. Next, I'm just excited to see kids passionate and motivated for the same things I only knew about 3 years ago. I was moved by the teachers. They are our greatest resource in this world. If I wasn't so passionate about business I would love to teach kids.
I'm glad I got to share my experiences with them and make a few points. These were the points I wanted them to know:
1 - I started out in Information Systems and now I'm a consultant working primarily with green businesses doing business development. How the hell did I get there? Life is going to drift you away from point B when you start out and you end up doing things you've never imagined. Be flexible, accept the obstacles and challenges and always be growing.
2 - Education is so important. But don't limit yourself to a bachelors. Aim higher and always be learning. You can create opportunities for yourself and in then create opportunities for others.
3 - My success comes from the success of my clients. My success is because somebody gave me a chance to shine. Make sure you help the next generation and never think you made it on your own.
4 - I haven't met anyone successful that doesn't have a positive mindset.
5 - The world is yours if you want it. Explore, ask questions, create, be a leader.
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting differing results. Isn't that what people do when they continue to try and make things work in a relationship that seems doomed to fail?
Doomed to fail is harsh, always off on the wrong foot.
It seems like thats the facet in people's lives where they act crazy. They're unrealistic with their optimism.
During my trip, I may have been asked about my future wedding about a thousand times. The key is handling the question gracefully. I've learned that humor in this situation doesn't make it less awkward as it works in the US. People in India are asking looking for a legitimate response...
Even the people who have been bugging me for a while have now gotten fed up. They want to know, they need to know WHEN???
After a 2 week hiatus, I come back from India inspired, motivated, and more determined than I have ever been in my entire life. Let me explain.
These last few months of transition have been brutal. I left an organization that had been a big part of my life after my successful tenure ended. The whole experience was bittersweet at the end. Knowing how much I accomplished with my team and the memories we made still outweighs all the negatives but those have since been my only recollections.
With that happening I had a major change in my living situation. I went from a 2 year arrangement to having to find someone else. That led to me a weird place feeling now like I'm in the shoes of my old roommate while my current roomie is ME from 2 years ago. I'm still trying to find the happy medium of patience and social interaction, but I'm struggling still 3-plus months in.
Work is somehting I can't even summarize. It's been a crazy rollercoaster.
Personal life... Still trying to find the proper closure between my latest ex so that we can maintain a friendship. Not a bullshit friendship but an actual, meaningful, mutually beneficial friendship like people have.
I'm missing a ton of other things but going to India I was able to escape all that stuff to clear my head in some ways and get ready for the next steps in life. I visited so many temples and received so many blessings, and got in touch with my spiritual side. I feel like I can't lose right now.
I got to see my family and get a better understanding of what it is to be Punjabi. I'm so glad for that.
I've come back and changed my behavior, my routine, my outlook on life and I'm moving very fast, yet controlled.
