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    Thursday, December 18, 2008

    dreams getting weirder and weirder

    A couple nights ago I had this dream. I'm not going to get into full detail about it, but it had these components. I human-like hamster colony, where I befriended a lady hamster. Only thing I can draw out of this ordeal was the colony was harmless, cute, endearing, loveable, and not my species. Another component to this was a bachelor party for one of my friends who doesn't even have a girlfriend anymore and is way less mature than me at this point in his life. So it was bringing these opposing value systems together somehow in the same dream and being able to live with both. Some major analysis work there but when you're sitting in traffic in the rain you have time to think about this kind of stuff.

    Tuesday, December 16, 2008

    we're all just a little messed up

    Everyone is so flawed. Everywhere I turn and look I see people that are not complete, myself included. We all walk around thinking subconciously or consciously, at different degrees that we are better than others. I'm better than my coworker, he's got issues with his work ethic. We're all messed up and its not a bad thing. It should give us some empathy when we deal with others. It should lengthen our patience as we go through conflicts.

    Monday, December 15, 2008

    kanye on SNL

    the visuals r siiick

    Sunday, December 14, 2008

    dedicated to my fantasy football team

    playoffs start next week.

    Tuesday, December 09, 2008

    big day

    I had a nice entourage-like moment meeting Fred Silverman and Paul Wagner. Silverman is profilic and an OGEE when it comes to network television. Paul is an awesome guy on his own right. These guys hired me to help them but the whole thing meeting was so Hollywood. Meeting at Fred's house in Brentwood at his home office which is siiick. Happy me!

    Friday, December 05, 2008

    poking fun at myself

    Yesterday I listened to the Kanye West Album 808s and Heartbreak 7 times through. 4 at work and the rest at home. This guy went through a hell of a breakup. He sounds like me every time I break up with a chick. Needless to say I'm going to wear this album out... My favorite song?

    Tough to choose one but these 3 are at a tie. "Coldest Winter", "Welcome to Heartbreak", and "Coldest winter" in no particular order.

    Tuesday, December 02, 2008

    HOTTT

    Tuesday, November 25, 2008

    the complete opposite of vengeance

    A friend of mine who is much more cultivated got me thinking in another direction about broken friendships. I would have called them unfixable friendships but that makes it feel absolute. What my friend did, was contact another friend that she had a irreconcilable differences with. She humbly reached out unnecessarily when she was RIGHT in this situation, to make peace. I know both people and I can say with certainty that the person she reached out to is probably going to blow it off and not fully recognize the effort made by this person. Regardless, my friend is at peace and will not have any tension with person moving forward. I want to do that!!

    There's something noble in doing that appeals to me, but it's really about forgetting about it and moving on. Like, really moving on... So now I'm wondering who do I talk to first to see experience this?

    Thursday, November 20, 2008

    unforgiven.. i guess id better start getting used to it

    '

    Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
    Speak the words I want to hear, to make my demons run
    The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
    If you can understand the me, than I can understand the you.

    Lay beside me, under wicked sky
    Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
    The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
    Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
    No, there's no sun shining through
    No, there's no sun shining

    What I've felt, what I've known
    Turn the pages, turn the stone
    Behind the door, should I open it for you?

    What I've felt, what I've known
    Sick and tired, I stand alone
    Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
    Or are you unforgiven too?

    Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
    She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
    She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
    Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
    Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
    Dead sure she'll be there!

    What I've felt, what I've known
    Turn the pages, turn the stone
    Behind the door, should I open it for you?

    What I've felt, what I've known
    Sick and tired, I stand alone
    Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
    Or are you unforgiven too?

    (Solo)

    Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
    The door is closed, so are your eyes
    But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
    Yes now I see it!

    What I've felt, what I've known
    Turn the pages, turn the stone
    Behind the door, should I open it for you?

    What I've felt, what I've known
    So sick and tired, I stand alone
    Could you be there?, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
    The one who waits for you

    Oh what I've felt, what I've known
    Turn the pages, turn the stone
    Behind the door, should I open it for you?
    (So I dub thee unforgiven)

    Oh, what I've felt
    Oh, what I've known!

    I take this key (never free)
    And I bury it (never me) in you
    Because you're unforgiven too

    Never free
    Never me
    'Cause you're unforgiven too!

    Wednesday, November 19, 2008

    xbox 360

    We have one in our apartment now. I dreaded seeing that box because I know what video games have done to me. I'm addicted to 007 right now. I'm already checking deals for black Friday to pick up madden and nba live... after that is xbox live and then my career and social life will finally be ruined. ugh

    I'm lucky that I got cool friends who have jobs at cool places and can hook it up. I played basketball at Sony Studios tonight. they took an empty studio deep within the lot and converted it into a gym. It was a lot of fun whooping those accountants ASSES. I don't think I'll get back in though. I got away with low credentials this time but that guy isn't going to take my verbal plea/waiver that I gave him... too bad because I like their set up in there.

    Monday, November 17, 2008

    Career Day

    http://www.echsonline.org/

    How blessed am I that I get the opportunity to go and speak to these amazing kids and have actually listen to me. I'm first taken back by how much these kids already know about the environment and how focused their education is. Next, I'm just excited to see kids passionate and motivated for the same things I only knew about 3 years ago. I was moved by the teachers. They are our greatest resource in this world. If I wasn't so passionate about business I would love to teach kids.

    I'm glad I got to share my experiences with them and make a few points. These were the points I wanted them to know:

    1 - I started out in Information Systems and now I'm a consultant working primarily with green businesses doing business development. How the hell did I get there? Life is going to drift you away from point B when you start out and you end up doing things you've never imagined. Be flexible, accept the obstacles and challenges and always be growing.

    2 - Education is so important. But don't limit yourself to a bachelors. Aim higher and always be learning. You can create opportunities for yourself and in then create opportunities for others.

    3 - My success comes from the success of my clients. My success is because somebody gave me a chance to shine. Make sure you help the next generation and never think you made it on your own.

    4 - I haven't met anyone successful that doesn't have a positive mindset.

    5 - The world is yours if you want it. Explore, ask questions, create, be a leader.

    Friday, November 14, 2008

    insanity

    Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting differing results. Isn't that what people do when they continue to try and make things work in a relationship that seems doomed to fail?

    Doomed to fail is harsh, always off on the wrong foot.

    It seems like thats the facet in people's lives where they act crazy. They're unrealistic with their optimism.

    Thursday, November 13, 2008

    running scared

    During my trip, I may have been asked about my future wedding about a thousand times. The key is handling the question gracefully. I've learned that humor in this situation doesn't make it less awkward as it works in the US. People in India are asking looking for a legitimate response...

    Even the people who have been bugging me for a while have now gotten fed up. They want to know, they need to know WHEN???

    I don't have an answer, sorry...

    Wednesday, November 12, 2008

    my trip

    After a 2 week hiatus, I come back from India inspired, motivated, and more determined than I have ever been in my entire life. Let me explain.

    These last few months of transition have been brutal. I left an organization that had been a big part of my life after my successful tenure ended. The whole experience was bittersweet at the end. Knowing how much I accomplished with my team and the memories we made still outweighs all the negatives but those have since been my only recollections.

    With that happening I had a major change in my living situation. I went from a 2 year arrangement to having to find someone else. That led to me a weird place feeling now like I'm in the shoes of my old roommate while my current roomie is ME from 2 years ago. I'm still trying to find the happy medium of patience and social interaction, but I'm struggling still 3-plus months in.

    Work is somehting I can't even summarize. It's been a crazy rollercoaster.

    Personal life... Still trying to find the proper closure between my latest ex so that we can maintain a friendship. Not a bullshit friendship but an actual, meaningful, mutually beneficial friendship like people have.

    I'm missing a ton of other things but going to India I was able to escape all that stuff to clear my head in some ways and get ready for the next steps in life. I visited so many temples and received so many blessings, and got in touch with my spiritual side. I feel like I can't lose right now.

    I got to see my family and get a better understanding of what it is to be Punjabi. I'm so glad for that.

    I've come back and changed my behavior, my routine, my outlook on life and I'm moving very fast, yet controlled.

    Thank GOD.

    Wednesday, October 29, 2008

    Sal Mubarak

    Happy Diwali. It's the Indian New Year. It wasn't a very festive, minus the activities and jovial attitudes of the people around me. I'm less than 12 hours away from a flight to India via Tokyo. I'm nervous. 1 - because I don't like flying and 2- the uncertainty. I'm going to a cousin's wedding with just my father to parts of India I've never been to before. My hindi is very, very rusty and I made false promises to my chosen tutor that I my hindi would be perfected by the time I leave. And she... she hasn't spoken to me in over 2 weeks and hasn't spoken hindi to me in over a month. I'm subconscious about my accent when I speak and my verb conjugation. It's a weird insecurity but I can't explain it clearly.

    Tuesday, October 28, 2008

    redistribution of wealth?

    First off, I'm a registered Democrat. I was forced that way because my Dad made me register that way because of his political ties to certain organizations in the Greater PHX Metro area. Not that I'm a republican or libertarian or an independent. I'm just a dude that floats around. I'm pretty liberal so I usually side with the Dems and I can easily fit in with the Dems considering the majority of my friends are. I would have voted for McCain in 2004 if he was the republican candidate because he always fought for what is right. I remember him defending John Kerry against some of the pro-Bush organizations' attacks on him and his military record. He did it because a soldier is a soldier and you don't question that. NEVER. Shit happens in war that no one wants to talk about and it has absolutely no place in a campaign, in my opinion.

    And that is one of the major reasons I won't vote for McCain this year. He never talked about his time in the POW camp, only once with TIME Magazine (could be wrong) where he talked about his captivity in detail. The McCain that I remember who came to my Middle School wasn't about that shit. He was all about doing the right thing and being stubborn about it regardless of party affiliation. Problem is, I don't trust his judgement or politics anymore. My gut feeling is telling me he feels entitled to be president. It's an end of the life crisis and that's cool. I hope I can do even 1/25 of what McCain does in his life. The guy is in an Arizonan!! I should partial to him and I can't even recognize the guy I know.

    So anyways. Redistribution of wealth... What is welfare? What is social security? What are the benefits that non-profits get? There's so many things that the government does that classifies as redistribution of wealth (ahem, except health care) that makes me wonder whats going on? So if Obama is a communist just say it. What's wrong being a socialist. If I remember correctly that was THE popular movement at the turn of the 20th century, during the end of the industrial revolution. So what the hell?? Yeah things got out of hand with corporate America and the majority of people need their problems fixed based off this greed and negligence.

    Anyways, the main thing I wanted to get across is that Joe Biden is a jackass. I think he's an endearing individual but he puts his foot in his mouth just about as much as I do. Which means he's a jackass.

    Monday, October 27, 2008

    history

    When 2 people have a history, its the bond that ties them together for seemingly ever if they let it. I think that's dangerous. That attachment and the idealism (putting someone on a pedestal in comparison to others) holds people back. When I look back at those people that I had history with and I always thought the next time trying would be the charm. But we always faced the same problems. Its not bad to have history that is tied to good memories and beautiful moments. But when that history puts the vehicle in reverse, its hard to tell its a waste of time until way into the future, ironically.

    There's a reason why people are in the past and when their brought into the present there's a decision to be made. When it boomerangs around its really refreshing to bring an old flame or an old friend back into your life. It's hard not be inviting unless it was too soon.

    What I'm trying to say is you have to keep moving forward. Especially when life gets you down and that history is so comforting, things look like they only lead down that old path... You have to fight through all that and try to stay on that path. Yeah, its easy to feel like its bringing you back and the all reasons in the world start to avalanche into what is right. But really? In a clear head I know I had all the reasons in the world why it wouldn't work so what happened to logic?

    ugh....

    Sunday, October 26, 2008

    Desi Speed Dating Event- Los Angeles

    from webmd

    Give the apples and bananas a rest and round out your repertoire with these exotic, antioxidant-packed picks

    Though Americans are eating more fruit these days (go us!), more than half are the old standbys: bananas, apples, and oranges. Yes, they're good for you--but you're missing out. "Different fruits provide an array of disease-fighting vitamins, minerals, and antioxidants," says Joy Bauer, RD, author of Joy Bauer's Food Cures. In fact, broadening your horizons can measurably improve your health. Colorado State University nutritionists asked 106 women to eat 8 to 10 servings of produce daily for 8 weeks. Half the group chose from 18 different varieties, while the others ate the same 5 over and over again. Two weeks later, blood tests showed that the high-variety group reduced their rates of DNA oxidation, possibly making their bodies more resilient against disease; the other group had no change.

    Ready to mix it up? Here's a quickie primer on some of the smartest "exotic" picks based on their health benefits--and how to serve them in place of common favorites.

    For perfect blood pressure
    Good: Bananas
    Better: Fresh figs

    Why: Six fresh figs have 891 mg of blood pressure-lowering potassium, nearly 20% of your daily need--about double what you'd find in one large banana. In a recent 5-year study from the Netherlands, high-potassium diets were linked with lower rates of death from all causes in healthy adults age 55 and older.

    You'll also get...a boost to your bones. Figs are one of the best fruit sources of calcium, with nearly as much per serving (six figs) as 1/2 cup of fat-free milk!

    Shop for figs that are dry on the surface and feel heavy in the hand. A perfectly ripe fig may have slight cracks that are bursting with the fruit's sweet syrup.

    Serve by chopping and adding to yogurt, cottage cheese, oatmeal, or green salads. Or, enjoy them as a savory snack: Cut a slit in the side and stuff with 1/2 teaspoon of a low-fat version of a soft cheese such as chèvre or Brie.

    To protect your heart and fight disease
    Good: Red grapes
    Better: Lychee

    Why: A French study published in the Journal of Nutrition found that lychee has the second-highest level of heart-healthy polyphenols of all fruits tested--nearly 15% more than the amount found in grapes (cited by many as a polyphenol powerhouse). The compounds may also play an important role in the prevention of degenerative diseases such as cancer. "Polyphenols act like a force field, helping to repel foreign invaders from damaging your cells," says David Grotto, RD, author of 101 Foods That Could Save Your Life!

    You'll also get...protection from breast cancer. A recent test-tube and animal study from Sichuan University in China found that lychee may help to prevent the formation of breast cancer cells, thanks to the fruit's powerful antioxidant activity.

    Shop for lychee with few black marks on the rough, leathery shell, which can be anywhere from red to brown in color. Look for fruit that gives when pressed gently. Shells should be intact and the fruit attached to the stem.

    Serve by peeling or breaking the outer covering just below the stem; use a knife to remove the black pit. Add to stir-fries or skewer onto chicken kebabs to add a sweet, grapelike flavor.


    For beautiful skin
    Good: Orange
    Better: Guava

    Why: One cup of guava has nearly five times as much skin-healing vitamin C (it's a key ingredient in collagen production) as a medium orange (377 mg versus 83 mg)--that's more than five times your daily need. Women who eat a lot of vitamin C-packed foods have fewer wrinkles than women who don't eat many, according to a recent study that tracked the diets of more than 4,000 American women ages 40 to 74.

    You'll also get...bacteria-busting power. Guava can protect against foodborne pathogens such as Listeria and Staph, according to research by microbiologists in Bangladesh. Also, a cooperative study by the USDA and Thai scientists found that guava has as much antioxidant activity as some well-known superfoods like blueberries and broccoli (though every plant contains a different mix of the healthful compounds).

    Shop for guava using your nose. A ripe guava has a flowery fragrance, gives a bit to the touch, and has a thin, pale green to light yellowish rind.

    Serve by adding to fruit cobbler recipes (the tiny seeds are edible) or simmer chunks in water as you would to make applesauce. Guava also makes a super smoothie: Blend 1/2 banana, 1/2 ripe guava, a handful of strawberries, 1/2 cup soy milk, and a few ice cubes.

    To lower cholesterol
    Good: Apples
    Better: Asian pears

    Why: One large Asian pear has nearly 10 g of cholesterol-lowering fiber, about 40% of your daily need; a large apple has about half that much. People who ate the most fiber had the lowest total and "bad" cholesterol levels, according to a recent study of Baltimore adults.

    You'll also get...protection from creeping weight gain. The same researchers found that people who ate the most fiber also weighed the least and had the lowest body mass index and waist circumference.

    Shop for pears with a firm feel; fragrant aroma; and blemish-free, yellow brownish skin. Some pears are speckled in appearance; the markings shouldn't affect flavor.

    Serve by dicing it into a salad of Boston lettuce, crumbled goat cheese, walnuts, and mandarin oranges. Or, make it a dessert: Add peeled and cored pears to a saucepan with 1 cup white wine, 1 teaspoon honey, 1 teaspoon grated fresh ginger, and enough water to cover the pears. Cover and simmer 40 minutes or until pears are soft.

    To fight cancer
    Good: Watermelon
    Better: Papaya

    Why: It is one of the top sources of beta-crypoxanthin, which research suggests can protect against lung cancer. Like watermelon, it is also a rich source of lycopene. "Although there is currently no recommendation for how much lycopene you should consume in a day, research shows that the nutrient may protect against several different types of cancer, including stomach, endometrial, and prostate," says Grotto.

    You'll also get...better healing. Papayas may help speed burn recovery when used topically, thanks partly to the enzyme papain, which also aids in digestion. "Papain helps break down amino acids, the building blocks of protein," says Elisa Zied, RD, an American Dietetic Association spokesperson.

    Shop for a papaya with yellow golden skin that yields to gentle pressure.

    Serve by cutting lengthwise and discarding black seeds. Scoop the flesh using a spoon and sprinkle with lemon juice. Or combine chopped papaya, mango, red bell pepper, red onion, raspberries, lemon juice, and cilantro for a fruit salsa. Serve over grilled fish.

    More exotic fruit ideas! For varieties you don't see here, visit our food encyclopedia at prevention.com/food.

    this game means very little to me if cards dont win today

    ill have alot to say after this one.

    Saturday, October 25, 2008

    my expiration date

    November 1st... Not even close... Don't really have much quite to say, other than I should have set it for October 1st.

    Tuesday, October 21, 2008

    my urge

    The urge to do things... For someone like me who has a very difficult time staying focused (attributed to ADHD), in the middle of a task or activity I get the urge to do something else. It has made me a really impulsive person. I get very strong feelings in situations. So I can be very upset and in a moment's notice have no feeling at all for the previous moment where I got upset. It doesn't sound very normal.

    Sometimes I have to duel with these urges especially when its something of significance. I have to fight myself everyday to make sure I won't send a text message or an email. I think of ways I can better myself so that I can be ready if I ever get the chance to gain back a friendship.

    Another urge, I force myself to resist the temptation of asking for help from my friends. I know that they can help and wouldn't think differently of me but I don't want to change the dynamics of the relationship. In my world, showing vulnerability for me is like walking around naked.

    The biggest urge which makes me either closer or distant from people is my urge to tell people how I feel about them. When you get to know someone and you observe in the manner that I do, I get to see who they are. They might think they are projecting themselves off a certain way but I look past that stuff to see how do they really think. When you live in LA and you see a lot of facades, you just get sick of it and want to tell people. But its like undressing someone and it has to have a time and place. I just don't have a good enough of a filter to stop from these things coming out subtly or in very clever/unclever ways depending on how you see it.

    I don't think I see things that other don't see. Sometimes I'm just paying more attention than them for curiosity sakes.

    Monday, October 20, 2008

    My Endorsement

    Somebody asked me about a cleaner that was safe to poor down the drain. This is the company I endorse and I love their products. They are ecologically and economically friend since most of them come in concentrated forms that can be diluted for much longer life in under your sink.

    http://www.allamericanfacilityservices.com/cart/

    www.simplegreen.com

    Its fun to look at all their products. I wish I could go on a shopping spree and load up on this stuff.

    Sunday, October 19, 2008

    yikes

    Are you a proud American that invests wisely? Check this out.

    If you had purchased $1,000 of shares in Delta Airlines one year ago, you will have $49.00 today.
    If you had purchased $1,000 of shares in AIG one year ago, you will have $33.00 today.
    If you had purchased $1,000 of shares in Lehman Brothers one year ago, you will have $0.00 today.

    But, if you had purchased $1,000 worth of beer one year ago, drank all the beer, then turned in the aluminum cans for recycling refund, you will have received a $214.00.

    Based on the above, the best current investment plan is to drink heavily & recycle. It is called the 401-Keg.
    A recent study found that the average American walks about 900 miles a year.
    Another study found that Americans drink, on average, 22 gallons of alcohol a year. That means that, on average, Americans get about 41 miles to the gallon!


    Makes you proud to be an American!

    from yahoo

    So you've said "yes" to each other, to marriage, to a lifetime together. A moment like that can spill right into joyful wedding planning, but there is some other planning a couple needs to do before focusing on a ceremony and a day of celebration. Money planning -- not for one day but for your life together as a couple.

    When couples come together, they bring different approaches to money and often different lessons learned about handling money. Guaranteed, money will always be difficult to talk about as a couple and will often be the source of disagreements that lead to arguments. If you start the money conversation before marriage, you'll likely get off to a better start than many couples. So before you decide how many people to invite to the wedding and how much you should spend on a reception, here are some questions to ask each other about money to start life as a couple on solid financial ground.

    1. How many accounts do you have, and what kind are they? (Checking, savings, money markets?) How long have you had them? Start with an inventory of the accounts you both hold and how you handle them. Do you balance checking accounts at the end of the month? Do you do your banking online? As this 25-question checklist from Real Simple magazine notes, if your partner has maintained one checking account for many years and checks it to make sure there are no mistakes, those are good signs of financial stability.

    2. How many credit cards do you have, and how do you use them? Set aside lots of time to talk about credit cards. Since we are coming down from a consumer-credit frenzy, there's a good chance one or both of you have run up some scary balances on credit cards. Ask each other if you've ever maxed out a credit card, or if you pay off balances at the end of every month. If either or both of you have credit-card debt, you need to total it so you can come up with a plan to pay it off and get rid of it. Tackling debt is the first thing you need to do as a couple before you can achieve financial goals for your future.

    3. What other debt do you have? Credit-card debt is only one kind. Chances are there are some student debts or car loans, too, and you need to decide how to tackle all of your debt for the same reasons as above.

    4. Have you checked your credit score lately? We should each be checking on our credit reports and scores to make sure our credit is in good standing for when we need to apply for loans (once credit is available again!) Go to AnnualCreditReport.com to get credit reports from the three major consumer credit reporting companies. It's a good idea to do this once a year, and to definitely do so six months before you plan to apply for a major loan since it may take time to clear up problems or fix errors on the report.

    5. Should we have separate, joint, or separate and joint accounts? Once you know how many accounts you each have, how much is in them, and how much you will need to spend on monthly expenses, you'll need to decide whether to merge your accounts, keep separate accounts or agree on a combination of the two. There is no one right answer. But you need to decide what works for you as a couple, and to make sure money decisions are transparent and up-front. Stacy Rapacon gives examples of how each arrangement works for different couples in this Kiplinger.com article.

    7. How will we making buying decisions? To avoid arguments over individual purchases and to keep on track with your financial goals as a couple, it's a good idea to decide what purchase decisions should be made together and which should not. Maybe it will be a dollar cutoff ($100 or more, for example). Or maybe it will fall to household purchases. But whatever you decide, recognize that money matters are often tied up in emotional issues such as independence. So it's better to talk about the role emotions play than to shove them aside and spend individually as you please.

    8. Who will be responsible for paying bills and preparing taxes? The day-to-day nitty gritty of finances needs to be addressed. You need to talk about who will take care of the monthly bills, if you'll split them, and what accounts they will be paid from. Same goes for taxes: whether you prepare them youselves or hire an accountant (another decision), one of you needs to be on top of keeping good records.

    9. Do our work benefits overlap, and do you have insurance? These are the kinds of question that grow in importance if you own a home together or have children. But it's good to consider them early on in your relationship, too.

    10. What are our your money goals? Fact is, we need money to achieve most of our goals in life -- be it a house, travel, having children and paying for their education, and finally, retiring to a comfortable lifestyle. You may think you share the same goals, but until you ask each other, you won't know for sure. Talk it out. One of you may want to work less if and when you have young children, while the other assumes you'll both keep working full time. One of you may want to travel, while the other hopes to buy a boat. You get the idea. Talking about your goals will help you figure out how to handle your money day to day in a way that meshes with your future aims as a couple.

    Asking these questions early on and starting the conversation before you say "I do" will make it easier to revisit money talk, which may not be as fun as pillow talk but is certainly as vital to your relationship.

    Wednesday, October 15, 2008

    overkill

    Do you ever find something you love and you beat it into the ground until you ruin it?? A song, a movie, a t-shirt, a cell phone, and relationship? You could get away from it for a couple years and come back and its still all jacked up.

    Just throwing it out there.

    seinfeld

    I was watching a rerun of Seinfeld and it urged me to write this blog. I swear its the full moon. It puts me in a weird yet positive mindset. People who admire sunsets, can understand how I look at full moons, only with a strange fascination. I can go off on this tangent right now about full-moons, but this Seinfeld thing is making me think.

    In the episode "The Lockbox", George intentionally cheats on his girlfriend who refuses to break up with him in order to force her to dump him. He says at the end of the episode that, I've ruined 3 lives."

    It made me start thinking about Seinfeld. The 4 main characters do a lot of things that upset, interfere, hurt, inconvenience, and the people around them end up testifying against them in the Final episode in a strange court case. If I was put on trial who would come to my defense as a character witness?? And the yin to that yang would be, who would testify against me??

    I know that I've probably hurt and definitely helped a lot of people in my lifespan and which side would outweigh the other? You can hurt somebody really bad and you can help someone out of a jam and the person that was hurt is going to have much stronger feelings.

    I don't want to live a life like Seinfeld in his TV show. I know I don't. But when you know people out there that have bad feelings towards you (maybe even saying bad things about you) perhaps you've done something wrong with your life.

    What makes me move on without doing a serious necessary life-inventory is that everyone goes through this if know it or not. My life impacts a lot of individuals and thats a sign of my influence whether its good or bad. But regardless this isn't to boost my ego, there's a point. In the Seinfeld episodes you can see when Seinfeld does something wrong or does something right and its misconstrued as a selfish or whatever act. But we have sympathy for the character because we know his heart is in the right place.

    My heart's in the right place. People, including me will continue to make mistakes even after experiencing the best life-lessons, getting educated at the best schools. We're fallable creatures that deserve multiple chances. Obama has been associated with Bill Ayers and McCain has been associated Charles Keating. My goal in life is not be the Keating, but the good guy when people speculate.

    Tuesday, October 14, 2008

    CBRID

    CENTER FOR BUSINESS RESEARCH, INNOVATION, AND DEVELOPMENT

    I'm so happy I'm a part of this. Things are good...

    Sunday, October 12, 2008

    Bouncing Back - John Calipari

    I'm buying this book once it comes out.

    "You need to stay positive. You want to hold a grudge, to be vicious to those who did this to you. If you’re obsessed with that, you lose. Be obsessed with positive thoughts. Conduct the phone call test — Sam, pay attention to your phone calls with friends. There are those who you talk to who make you feel good. But there’s one person who, every time you talk to them, they’re negative. We all know people like that. Do you really want to talk to them? No. Don’t be that person.

    You need to let go and move on. Look in the mirror and say, “Everything I’m going to do today will be positive. I’ll be upbeat when people talk to me.” You’ll notice it’ll change how people look at you and talk about you. You want to be able to draw people to you because, at some level, someone is going to have to reach out and help."

    Thursday, October 09, 2008

    my concious is killing me

    If you can't share something that you did with certain people then I guess its a bad thing. Fuck me.

    Wednesday, October 08, 2008

    from darkness to light

    When you're lost its so much harder to find your way when you spend time trying to figure out how you got lost in the first place. After my lifetime of experiences I've taken up the approach of finding a direction and just going with it even if its wrong until I can get to a point to recalibrate.

    I met someone that was lost on their journey and the opportunity was presented to me be part of their journey. Only to later on to be told that their journey was sort of a pit stop. Needless to say thats where it ended for me. First of all, I had no business being there in the first place, but it did feel right at some point. Not that that is worth anything, but it needs to be said.

    The following applies to friends and significant others: You always hear people tell you that they will always care about you, and they will always worry about you, they will always be friends, and blah, blah, blah. That is not true. Once, the moment is gone and it has been fully removed, and the space in the relationship ecosystem is replaced with someone else, there's little to no feeling left. I can confirm that from at least 2 ex-girlfriends based solely on action. And I'm not bitter about that, in fact the feeling is somewhat mutual. I don't wish hate or harm on anyone, but its a lot harder to sympathize or empathize when you don't any connection to them.

    So rather than realize this later on, its better to admit it now. It's going to come to that point anyways.

    The whole thing was a farce. We used each other. Anything that was said to me I can't hold to be true or untrue. I always had the control and I never utilized it. I was never Number 1 at any point. It was fun, but I never got what I really wanted. I was overly analyzed, compared, criticized to the point where it started wearing down my own self-esteem.

    I'm keeping this story very short, and vague because it doesn't deserve much time. The good thing is, I got the fire in my belly back. I got a mega-chip on my shoulder that's going to turn into something positive. So much good is going to come out of this situation for me and the people directly and indirectly around me.

    Out of the darkness and into the light....

    Tuesday, October 07, 2008

    Palin

    People are giving this lady a hard time and deservedly so. Can I say that Tina Faye looks eerily similar. She's got a job for the rest of her life doing imitation work, especially if Palin continues to be in the national spotlight even if her ticket isn't elected. I'm pretty sure she's planning on running in 2012 if no strong candidates emerge from the GOP. Right now she's getting crushed in what the Republicans call the 'liberal media' but what she's not a seasoned veteran. She has very little color in her political background along with substance. She hangs her hat on these great things she did in Alaska, but really?

    To me it sounds like she's more of a community organizer than Obama. Hell, I'm a community organizer too!! She should be running for seat in the Senate not for VP!! On a side note I think its awesome how politicians make outrageous claims and they don't catch nearly half the heat that they should be getting.

    There's Al Gore who said he invented the internet. Palin saying she sold the Governor's Jet on Ebay. WBush and his nachos. Oh, and this guy... which doesn't fit in this category but any opportunity to here you have to go out of the way;

    Monday, October 06, 2008

    plagiarised, sue me...

    Why Math is Taught in School (Written By A Very Wise Man)
    > >
    > >I was riding to work yesterday when I observed a female driver
    > >cut right in front of a pickup truck, causing him to have to drive on to
    > >the shoulder to avoid hitting her. This evidently angered the driver
    > >enough that he hung his arm out his window and 'flipped' the woman off.
    > >
    > >Man, that guy is stupid,' I thought to myself. I ALWAYS smile
    > >nicely and wave in a sheepish manner whenever a female does anything to me
    > >in traffic, and I drive 48 miles each way every day to work.
    > >
    > >That's 96 miles each day.
    > >
    > >Of these, 16 miles each way is bumper-to-bumper.
    > >
    > >Most of the bumper-to-bumper is on an 8-lane highway.
    > >There are 7 cars every 40 feet for 32 miles.
    > >That works out to be 982 cars every mile, or 31,424 cars.
    > >
    > >Even though the rest of the 32 miles is not bumper-to-bumper, I
    > >figure I pass at least another 4000 cars.
    > >
    > >That brings the number to something like 36,000 cars
    > >that I pass every day.
    > >
    > >Statistically, females drive half of these.
    > >
    > >That's 18,000 women drivers!
    > >
    > >In any given group of females, 1 in 28 has PMS.
    > >
    > >That's 642.
    > >
    > >According to Cosmopolitan, 70% describe their love life as
    > >dissatisfying or unrewarding.
    > >
    > >That's 449.
    > >
    > >According to the National Institute of Health, 22% of all females
    > >have seriously considered suicide or homicide.
    > >
    > >That's 98.
    > >
    > >And 34% describe men as their biggest problem.
    > >
    > >That's 33
    > >
    > >According to the National Rifle Association, 5% of all females
    > >carry weapons, and this number is increasing.
    > >
    > >That means that EVERY SINGLE DAY, I drive past at least one
    > >female that has a lousy love life, thinks men are her biggest problem, has
    > >seriously considered suicide or homicide, has PMS, and is armed.
    > >
    > >Flip one off? ....... I think not.

    Thursday, October 02, 2008

    friendship ecosystem

    There's a concept I believe when it comes to the friendship circles that we keep. Those friends that invoke certain states-of-minds that we go into when we're in there company, those friends fit in an ecosytem for our survival. So if there's someone that you turn to when you get upset about work or a significant other and that person isn't there where do you turn? Someone's status is elevated in the ecosytem. It works the reverse way too. People can take up precious space in the ecosystem at the cost of another.

    I can't really figure out where some people belong in mine if they belong there at all but its never good to burn bridges. I'm trying to make an extra effort to fix the bridges, even the ones I didn't touch.

    Wednesday, October 01, 2008

    im 27!! never found a song so fitting

    i need to find a nice jain girl...

    Monday, September 29, 2008

    dualism

    When judging one's character it might help to use a scale from -5 to 5. One end is the dark side and opposite end is a the light side. If we could rate people based on these qualities and some kind of algorithm to grade on certain situations then we could the high probability of how peoplw would act in specific situations.

    I'm cynical, but people are so predictable.

    Thursday, September 25, 2008

    Tuesday, September 23, 2008

    9 WORDS WOMEN USE

    (1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

    (2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

    (3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

    (4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

    (5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer=2 0back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

    (6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

    (7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question or Faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' ... that will bring on a 'whatever').

    (8) Whatever: Is a women's way of saying F*** YOU!

    (9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

    Thursday, September 18, 2008

    caught between a rock and a hard place

    Life has a lot of weird 'caught in between' phases. The current path doesn't seem promising but taking another one seems to be a regress. I can't remember where the 2 decisions were good or even better. Those are always too true to be real. Anyways, so I noticed a pattern when it comes to these weird quirks.

    People usually take 2 options. One is stay in between while their whole world comes crumbling down OR some unforeseen but very welcome third random option presents itself. To an outsider the third option looks ridiculous and foolish.

    I've had a long week, I can't think right now so this blog post will go unfinished and almost regrettable just like a bunch of others. UGH

    Sunday, September 14, 2008

    football!!

    My Sundays always seem to get away from me, because of football. I watch games I don't even have fantasy players in much less a gambling, or rooting interest and even if the game sucks, I'm satisfied. Luckily, I'm starting to find things to do during the games to make sure I'm still productive, but I wonder if I'm wasting my time??

    I can watch the first half of a game on at the gym on the elliptical and then catch the fourth quarter at home while I'm making a meal. Sounds like a solid plan, eh?

    Wednesday, September 10, 2008

    they teach this in classes!

    slowly but surely

    Success doesn't happen over night all the time. So I'm hoping that I'm not wasting my time here. Check this out

    http://www.csudh.edu/extendeded/MBAshoestring.htm

    Tuesday, September 09, 2008

    Monday, September 08, 2008

    friendship

    There comes a point with your existing friends that the friendship doesn't have any more value. This is coming from someone who has grown hypercritical on spending time with people where the give and take is imbalanced along. What I mean is, just because you know someone your whole life, doesn't mean you need to know them for the rest of your life.

    I think you can out-grow friends and you can also have particular friend whose needs fit at the time and don't fit anymore. This comes off very selfish but from what I've been experiencing everyone is selfish and self-absorbed. So I've reached the conclusion for myself that I need to do the same thing. I can keep it transparent and let others know that hey, I used to do nice things for everyone and I used to be considerate for everyone.

    I used to be very understanding and longer you've known me the easier it is to get me to do things for you or walk all over me. I'm not participating in those types of relationships any further. I'm going to be showing a much more transparent side and people aren't going to like it.

    Friday, September 05, 2008

    8 Remedies for Under-Eye Dark Circles

    Nothing says exhaustion and strain like dark circles under your eyes. The problem is, you may be getting plenty of sleep every night and still wake up with puffy raccoon eyes. Now what? Read on to find out why you get under-eye circles and how to reduce their appearance or get rid of them altogether.

    Causes of Dark Circles
    Dark circles are often a heredity trait. The skin around our eyes is the most delicate and thinnest skin in the body. Dark circles under the eyes are blood vessels that can be seen through the skin, producing the bluish tint.

    Allergies are another common cause of dark circles. When you rub and scratch your itchy eyes, it irritates the skin and can break tiny capillaries beneath the skin, causing puffiness and discoloration. If allergies are the root of your problem, simply treat them or avoid what you're allergic to. If your dark circles or puffiness are constant, you may have an undetected food allergy or an allergy to a chemical in your surroundings. Consult an allergist to determine what you may be allergic to.

    Chinese medicine considers dark circles as a sign of weakness in the kidney network. Kidney weakness is due to exhaustion and overstrain coupled with lack of rest and relaxation. Since the kidney network in Chinese medicine governs the hormonal system, it affects the pigment melanin. It is said that unhealthy and depleted kidneys produce pigment deposit under the skin around the eyes and other parts of the face.

    Many cosmetic problems can be attributed to vitamin deficiencies. Dark circles and puffiness are often thought to be due to vitamin K deficiency or a lack of antioxidants in the diet.

    It is also believed that lack of the mineral iron can cause dark circles. An iron deficiency may point to anemia, which is a potentially serious medical condition that requires treatment. If you believe you may have anemia, see your family doctor to schedule blood work.

    Dark circles occur more frequently and are more noticeable with age, because as we get older, our skin loses collagen and becomes thinner and more translucent.

    Under-eye Remedies
    Reduce the puffiness and lighten your circles with these all-natural solutions.

    1. For starters, be sure you are getting seven to nine hours of sleep every night.

    2. What you eat counts! Eat a healthy, balanced diet, drink plenty of water, and make sure you are getting all your vitamins and minerals. Be sure to get plenty of fruits and vegetables, especially cabbage, spinach, and other leafy greens. Eat at least 2 cups of organic fresh spinach everyday. Additionally, eat a handful of raw almonds (unsalted and unroasted) between meals. Avoid salty foods, as salt causes the body to retain water, which equals bloating and puffiness that is particularly noticeable under the eye.

    3. Asian pear is a juicy and crunchy fruit that has long been prized by Chinese herbalists as a way to lighten under-eye circles. Asian (or Fuji) pears are packed with copper and vitamin C, antioxidant nutrients that help protect you from cellular damage caused by free radicals. When free radicals damage enough skin cells, signs of aging begin to appear. Copper is an essential component of superoxide dismutase (SOD), an enzyme that attacks these harmful agents when they enter the body via air pollution and other toxins.

    4. Treat your skin while you sleep. Just before bed, lightly wet a washcloth with cold water and place over your eyes as you sleep. By morning, you should see an improvement.

    5. Apply cucumber slices or cool tea bags to your eyes. Cucumber slices are famous for their ability to reduce puffiness, and the tannin in tea bags has been found to reduce swelling and discoloration. Lie down, close your eyes, and place fresh cucumber slices or cool, damp caffeinated tea bags over your eyes for about ten minutes every day.

    6. Gently apply almond oil under your eye every morning and evening until you see improvement.

    7. New skin-care technology has become available through years of intensive research; it is now possible to find creams and other products that can help you combat under-eye circles. A product I suggest is an all-natural anti-aging eye cream that lightens dark circles under the eye. For more information, click here.

    8. Avoid smoking, as it causes vascular problems that not only threaten your health, but also make your blood vessels appear more prominent under the skin.

    Treating your skin will help, but there may also be an underlying cause. Imbalances in your life show up on your face and skin. You may consider seeing a doctor of Oriental Medicine to uncover the root imbalance and improve your overall health.

    I hope you will take these tips and put your best face forward. I invite you to visit often and share your own personal health and longevity tips with me.

    Thursday, September 04, 2008

    everlong

    Monday, September 01, 2008

    Women Against Fantasy Sports

    www.womenagainstfantasysports.com

    This disgusts me. Its abhorring to read that these women see us men as addicts. Ofcourse being the advocate and the owner of a fantasy football league I know that it ccan be time consuming...

    But maybe ou should've married someone who could prioritize better.

    Friday, August 29, 2008

    hard work pays off a little

    http://www.csudh.edu/extendeded/MBAShoeString.htm

    Wednesday, August 27, 2008

    Marketing and Advertising

    I think what I want to do in the immediate future is find a way to merge the 2. In my experience in working in Marketing Management, most organizations do a poor job combing the 2 so that the goals and the messages are aligned. The Marketing team decides what who the target market is and how to market to them. The creative team makes the advertising units that go to them. But most organizations that outsource the creative team lose touch of the ROI on these advertisements and assume that they did or did not work. No one can properly be held accountable for it creating a lot of uncertainty which leads to people doing the status quo just because thats what they have done in the past.

    Also, if both teams are led by 1 person then the message will be uniform in all marketing material. These are just my ideal thoughts. I love marketing, especially the creative aspect of it...

    Thursday, August 21, 2008

    The Mystery of Michael Phelps' Father

    During Michael Phelps' races, camera shots of his mother Debbie were a fixture on NBC. The network showed endless replays of her falling to her seat after that memorable 100 butterfly finish. She even watched one race on camera with Cris Collinsworth, squeezing his knee the entire time. And after her son won his eighth gold medal, Debbie was all over NBC getting interviewed by Bob Costas, Matt Lauer and Meredith Viera. Michael's sisters, Hilary and Whitney were also in Beijing cheering on their little brother. All this coverage of the Phelps family led to one obvious question from our readers: Where was Dad?

    It's been well-documented that Debbie and Fred Phelps divorced when Michael was 9. Beyond that, little else has been publicized about Michael Phelps' father. Enter: Fourth-Place Medal's Investigative Unit. Today the FPMIU looks into the mystery of the whereabouts of Michael Phelps' father.

    Fred Phelps is a retired Maryland State Trooper, lives in a suburb of Baltimore and has remarried since divorcing Debbie Phelps in 1993. According to the Baltimore Sun, he watched the Olympics from his home, saying he was "on pins and needles" every time Michael dove into the pool. But, the New York Post reported that Fred has yet to call his son to congratulate him on his Olympic accomplishments.

    Following the divorce, Fred Phelps had little contact with his son. Prior to the 2004 Olympics, Michael told a reporter that his father hadn't even called to congratulate him when he set his first world record. However, the two reconciled prior to the Athens Games and Fred even made the trip to watch his son win six golds and two bronzes. Since then, however, the relationship has reportedly fractured.

    Fred Phelps declines most interview requests, citing a desire to have the focus remain on his son.

    Mystery: solved.

    Tuesday, August 19, 2008

    www.freebizcheckup.com

    If you have a small business, check to see if its health.

    phelps phan

    Michael Phelps, your life is about to change....

    If I were him, I'd be walking around all the time with those 14 medals round my neck expecting royal treatment everywhere in the US.

    I swear he was letting that Serbian guy win so he could come back and crush him at the end. If you didn't know, he ran some smack before the race. Paraphrasing what he said, but he said he was going to rip the 100M Butterfly Gold from Phelps. He didn't say I was going to win the gold which would be a bold statement on its own.

    I can imagine what was going on in his head during the last relay... "Don't you fuckers ruin it for me!!!"

    Anyways, that guy is pretty cool. He listens to the same music I listen to, was picked on as a kid and kept that chip on his shoulder to fuel his determination. He started his olympic career when he was 15!! He's a badass. I want to know where his dad is though...

    Sunday, August 17, 2008

    Small-business owners' outlook bleak

    (Fortune Small Business) -- Is the country in a recession? While economists debate the question, small-business owners live it.

    The National Federation of Independent Business' monthly Index of Small Business Optimism fell one point to 88.2 in July, continuing one of the longest strings of recession-level readings in the 22-year history of the survey. Weak capital-spending plans, lower earnings, a soft labor market and heavy inventory reductions contributed to the continuing decline.

    Inflation remained the number-one concern of those polled for the second month in a row; the government announced earlier this week that inflation jumped to 5.6% in July, its highest point in 17 years.

    "I'd like to see the light at the end of the tunnel," said Tom Ulbrich, president and CEO of Mow More Landscape Supplies in Alden, NY.

    Ulbrich, who also works at the University of Buffalo's Center for Entrepreneurial Leadership, speaks with small-business owners on a daily basis and sees a number of factors contributing to owners' frustration. "I've been hearing a lot about increasing costs of health care, fuel and materials," he said. "In my own business, we have to get our lawnmower replacement parts from the south, then ship them back out for delivery, but the parts are heavy and the fuel costs are impacting us."

    Spending activity has declined since September and has fallen to early '80s levels, according to the NFIB's poll results. Nearly half of respondents (48%) said their earnings were down in July compared to the previous three months, with weaker sales and higher materials costs weighing on companies' bottom lines. Employment also remains soft: 10% of those polled said they had hired new workers, but 15% reduced employment at their firm.

    The NFIB's chief economist, Bill Dunkelberg, thinks the outlook is glum for the economy for the next six months. "That said, we should remind everyone that the U.S. is never uniformly in a boom or a recession," he said. "You really have to analyze what's happening in your market where you are and how it ties in to the fortunes of the larger economy."

    Not all owners are pessimistic; some treat the recession as a creative challenge. Even in the hard-hit construction industry, 19% of owners polled by the NFIB said plan to expand their workforce, while just 12% intend to cut back - and while 13% have cut their selling prices, 48% said they hiked them. Another glimmer of light: so far, the credit crunch remains a Wall Street problem and has not crimped small-business financing opportunities. Borrowing activity has stayed on pace with typical trends, and few owners say loans are hard to get.

    "Our country was built on the entrepreneurial spirit and we will get through this," Ulbrich says. "Entrepreneurs are optimistic by nature, and although they may be being cautious right now, they're still looking for opportunities."

    The good news is that the economy isn't as battered as small-business owners' optimism. The NFIB notes that its index showed similar numbers in grim days of the early '80s, but back then, inflation and unemployment were sharply higher than they are today.

    But if you still want to hunker down, Dunkelberg suggests resisting buying a lot of inventory, collecting customer payments quickly, and paying slowly on receivables. He encourages discussions with your bank - a relationship that serve you well if it stays on friendly terms. Finally, he believes that advertising is critical. "Don't pull back on it," he says. "Customers are so important now."

    Tuesday, August 12, 2008

    small achievements

    As I sat through a 4 hour (and still going) City Council Meeting, I had time to reflect (since I didn't have my laptop and ran out of things to do on the crackberry) on all the small little achievements before real success. I remember the founder of Bugle Boy telling me success didn't hit him until he was in his private jet looking down at commercial airliners from 50K feet. It hit him. That's not my topic here though.

    It's those little things that fill out as small ornaments on your tree of success that make it really have some eccentricity to it. (it sounds like a xmas tree). I got to meet some highly-successful individuals and got to exchange ideas with them. I got on TV Asia, and now the local programming channel in the LA market for Time Warner Cable. I got so many other ones my mind is going blank now but even when things go bad its nice to have things like that to think about.

    Monday, August 11, 2008

    10 minutes

    10 minutes is a measurement of time arbitrarily speaking. But its become the yardstick for how serious, or time intensive an activity can be me. For instance, 'she will be ready in 10 more minutes.' That can mean she has already taken too long and 10 more minutes is really 25 minutes. Or it can mean 10 minutes which is a very small amount of time. What I'm getting at is girls take too long to get ready!!

    Wednesday, August 06, 2008

    sleeeeep

    Here are five recent findings that might help you rest easier:

    1. We sleep better than we think we do

    For most of us, sleep deprivation is a myth. We're not zombies. The non-profit National Sleep Foundation (which takes money from the sleep-aid industry, including drug companies that make sleeping pills) says the average U.S. resident gets 7 hours a night and that's not enough, but a University of Maryland study earlier this year shows we typically get 8 hours and are doing fine. In fact, Americans get just as much sleep nowadays as they did 40 years ago, the study found.

    2. We need less sleep as we age

    We'll die without sleep. The details are sketchy, but research suggests it's a time when we restore vital biological processes and also sort and cement memories. Last year, the World Health Organization determined that nightshift work, which can lead to sleep troubles, is a probable human carcinogen. On the upside, the latest research suggests we need less of it as we get older.

    3. You can sleep like a baby (or Thomas Edison)

    Multiple, shorter sleep sessions nightly, rather than one long one, are an option. So-called polyphasic sleep is seen in babies, the elderly and other animals (and Thomas Edison reportedly slept this way). For the rest of us, it is more realistic and healthy to sleep at night as best we can and then take naps as needed. EEGs show that we are biphasic sleepers with two alertness dips - one at night time and one mid-day. So talk to HR about setting up a nap room, like they have for NASA's Phoenix mission team members.

    4. Animals exhibit a range of sleep habits

    The three-toed sloth sleeps 9.6 hours nightly. But newborn dolphins and killer whales can forgo sleeping for their entire first month. However, the latter extreme is not recommended for humans. We grow irritable and lose our ability to focus and make decisions after even one night of missed sleep, and that can lead to serious accidents driving and using other machinery.

    5. Get used to being tired, hit the desk

    The bottom line is that a good night's sleep is within the reach of most of us if we follow common-sense guidelines for sleep hygiene:

    Go to bed at the same time nightly.
    Set aside enough time to hit that golden 7 hours of sleep.
    Refrain from caffeine, heavy or spicy foods, and alcohol and other optional medications that might keep you awake, four to six hours before bed-time.
    Have a pre-sleep routine so you wind down before you hop in.
    Block out distracting lights and noises.
    Only engage in sleep and sex in bed (no TV-watching, reading or eating).
    Exercise regularly but not right before bed.


    But you already know all this and you don't do it. So your realistic plan might be to surrender to the mid-day desk nap.

    Monday, July 28, 2008

    check it out!






    gettng back on my journey

    I spent the last week taking a short side trip off my current path in life. It was a wild journey in only a weeks time but I have to look at it as one of those vacations where you travel somewhere and you hope to get back there someday but it probably won't happen.

    As i get back on my journey saddened, trudging along way below my normal pace, I'm left to think about a couple things.

    1 - I always say, that I'd rather be a lion for a day than a lamb who lives forever. I took a risk. I'll take more.

    2 - We focus too much in this world on what we're not and we forget what we are. We try to make up those differences in what we think we should be and don't spend time developing what we can be.

    That's it, long and stressful week ahead of me and its coming up in a few hours.

    Wednesday, July 23, 2008

    chris brown - forever , embedding disabled

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jQmqmQz_nI

    Monday, July 21, 2008

    my last 24 hours...

    "And we find at the end of a perfect day... the soul of a new friend :)"

    I agree wholeheartedly.

    Thursday, July 17, 2008

    M.I.A.

    She's got a different sound to her music. She's Sri Lankan and my roommate gave me her CD 2 years ago. And now she'll be forever linked to the Superbad Crew, at least in my mind. I'm too lazy to look up the name of their production company name so I'm just going to call them the Superbad Crew. Anyways, love this song.

    Tuesday, July 15, 2008

    Six Dating Behaviors That Scare Single Men Away

    1. Trash-talking your ex. Don't talk negatively about an ex-boyfriend in front of a guy you're dating. I don't care if you're on your first date or on your 15th date with a guy, don't ever trash-talk your ex. Your ex is somebody you dated, invited into your life, and with whom you spent a lot of time. So don't talk negatively about your ex in any way, because what a guy thinks when you do this is that if he ever becomes your ex that you're going to trash-talk him the same way. So, when a man asks you about your ex, you can politely say, "We are no longer together. It was a great relationship while it lasted, and I learned a lot." That's it.
    2. Paranoia Runs Rampant. Here you are dating a man you really like, and the first couple of weeks are going well. Then, that first boys' night out happens. In the beginning, you send him a text that says, "Have a great time tonight!" As the night progresses, however, seeds of doubt start forming in your mind about what he's doing, and you start to think "Is he cheating on me? Is he flirting with other women? Where is he right now?" So then, you lob another text in to him asking "What's going on? What are you doing right now?" Even though he tells you he's just hanging out with his friends, you proceed to make a major blunder:
    You start checking up on him with continuous texts throughout the night. This paranoia will push a man away.
    You start checking up on him with continuous texts throughout the night. This paranoia will push a man away. So when you are dating a man and he's out with his friends, respect his "guy time" -- it will make you the cool woman he's always wanted to find.
    3. Trash-talking other women. A huge mistake many women make is trash-talking other women in front of the man they're dating. For example, you are out with him when a woman walks by wearing a skimpy short skirt. You say, "Look how promiscuous that woman looks! I can't believe she is going around in public like that!" What you are doing when you make comments like this to a guy you're dating is telling him that you're not confident in the way you look. It tells him that you don't love who you are and haven't embraced your own body. You are planting a seed of doubt in him, causing him to wonder if he he should date someone else who is more confident (and tolerant). Don't trash-talk other women. It makes you look really insecure.
    4. Fishing for compliments. This is something that can drive a man crazy. Here is a typical scenario: The guy you're dating looks at you and says, "You really look beautiful tonight!" Ten minutes later, you look at him and ask, "How do I look tonight?" Stop fishing for compliments. Real compliments come from the heart. Allow us to compliment you when we really mean it. If we don't give a compliment at the exact moment you desire it, just accept it and be OK with that.
    5. Clingy and possessive. You don't need to do everything together. You're still getting to know him. If there are things he likes to do that simply don't interest you, be cool with it. You don't have to be joined at the hip. If you are going to a cocktail party together, you don't have to be next to him at every moment. If you see him speaking with some woman at the party, do not immediately run over and start grabbing his hand and giving him a big hug -- and certainly don't do this all night long. You are being clingy and possessive when you do this.
    6. Pushing friends on him. Avoid pushing friends on us too soon. Example: A woman will hang out with a guy on the first or second date and say to him, "You have to meet my friends Jenna and Amy. You also have to meet my friends Phil and Anne; they're such a great couple, and you'll love them!" A man hears this and thinks, "I don't even know you yet. Can I get to know you for a month or two before I have to go meet all of your friends and be put on display as 'the boyfriend?'" We don't want to be "the boyfriend" right away. It's too much pressure. We want to get to know you slowly and learn what you're all about. Believe me, once we get to know you -- and like you -- we will be more willing to get to know all of your friends.
    Following these tips will help you get past the first month of a new relationship with a man and avoid some of the major pitfalls that can end a new relationship before it even starts. Be the confident woman you really are so we have a chance to embrace you. Don't scare us off before we have a chance to get to know you!

    hearsay

    I heard something from someone that, had I known 2 years ago would have undoubtedly changed the course of history for at least 4 individuals myself included. I had to be secretive about it but it was a shocker when this little nugget of information was told to me as a matter of fact statement.

    If I would have known then what I know now, I can say for sure things would be a lot different. Everyone is happy in the end it looks like but its fun to play what if...

    Monday, July 14, 2008

    time to reflect

    I've given myself a week now to take a few steps back to look back at the last year or so. My life was consumed by YJA and 2008 convention. I gave everything I had with the hopes that I would be rewarded with positive results as an organization. I can say that i was paid back ten-fold.

    I'm extremely happy with how I'm leaving the organization and success it has had as me being one of the key figures crucial to that success. There are so many things that I'm going to miss as I give up this position to someone else. There's a few elements that make it so unique to be involved with YJA. I know I can be a project manager and have similar success as a leader. But will I be involved with a group of individuals that are like family to me? Will I share that same type of bond? I don't know...

    More importantly, will I be influence people the same way we did with our convention? Will we do something so good that is changes people's lives? I really hope I get an opportunity to be a part of that again.

    With this type of position, there's a lot of power that is the easiest thing to miss. Without that power its easy to feel irrelevant. I'm going to miss that for sure...

    But, I guess its time for me to move on as much as I want to hold on.

    Tuesday, June 24, 2008

    and so it begins....

    T-minus 5 days until Chicago.

    Here's a preview... to being jain and living green.

    Friday, June 20, 2008

    the darkness in others

    Imagine you have a black friend and he gets you so mad to the point where you'll think of anything you can to hurt him... Will you take it to that place??

    I don't think I would but I wonder. Because I can be driven to madness sometimes but there's a restrictor plate on that motor. A day or so back, someone tried to turn my inner thoughts, and emotions, and vulnerability I showed to them and turned it on me to try and hurt me.

    i was completely caught off guard because if this is a topic on someone's mind, then it shouldn't be brought up in a heated moment. It doesn't fit. And I'm speechless...

    Wednesday, June 18, 2008

    must read for dems/repubs/arizona residents

    Phoenix - For a senator who consistently gets 80 percent approval ratings from Arizonans, it seems strange, bizarre even, that John McCain would not be a shoo-in to win his home state in November's presidential election. Some in-state analysts say chances are fair, in fact, that Arizona will end up in the Democratic column.

    A big part of the uncertainty may be that the Republican Party's presumptive nominee has not distanced himself enough from the Bush administration to satisfy the one-third of state voters who are independents. But Senator McCain has also seen his support erode among Arizona's avid Bush supporters and social conservatives, for not backing the president on issues dear to their hearts. Toss in the resources and clout of Democratic Gov. Janet Napolitano, who will be pulling hard for her party's nominee, and anything can happen.

    "The simple conclusion for Arizona is that this could be a competitive state," says Earl de Berge, director of the Behavior Research Center, which conducts the Rocky Mountain Poll. "As presidential material, with him so closely aligned to the mainstream right-wing politics of the White House, he doesn't have the types of numbers we would expect to see."

    The latest Rocky Mountain Poll, conducted before Democrats settled on Sen. Barack Obama as their candidate, shows McCain winning Arizona over the Illinois senator by 11 percentage points. But in the same poll released May 24, fewer than 4 in 10 Arizonans said they see McCain as the best candidate to deal with two top issues: exiting Iraq and reviving the US economy.

    Rugged individualism and a "can-do" spirit are embedded in the DNA of the American Southwest, including Arizona � and they are characteristics that seem a match for McCain's own.

    But the state, among the fastest growing in the US, has changed with the influx of newcomers who hold views that are not as grounded in the rock-ribbed conservatism of Arizona's Barry Goldwater days. That makes politics here less predictable than in the past: In 1996, Arizonans voted for Bill Clinton, the first time they'd chosen a Democrat for president since Harry Truman won here in 1948. They swung back to the Republican side in 2000 and 2004, but in 2006's congressional elections they handed two GOP seats to the Democrats.

    Moreover, there's some residual disaffection for McCain within the Republican Party here, say political observers.

    The religious right, in particular, doesn't like that he voted against President Bush's tax cuts, pressed hard for campaign-finance reform that they see as curtailing political free speech, and backed an immigration measure that included a path to citizenship for illegal immigrants and a guest-worker program. Some say he's a "show horse" in the Senate, not a "workhorse," especially since his first presidential run, citing a low vote-casting record. (He's skipped almost 61 percent of floor votes in the current 110th Congress, a time when he's been on the campaign trail. In the previous three sessions, he missed on average 5.3 percent of floor votes, according to a Washington Post online database.) Others point to his temper and a stubborn streak.

    "He's got a real problem with the social conservatives and die-hard Bush supporters," says David Berman, a senior research fellow with Arizona State University's Morrison Institute. "Contrary to his claims that he doesn't have a bad temper, he's blown up at quite a few people here. He doesn't tolerate fools easily."

    "On the other hand," Dr. Berman adds, "he has so much appeal with moderate Republicans, Democrats, and even independents that he doesn't need that base for a statewide vote."

    McCain's hard push for office
    McCain is like a lot of people who live in Arizona: They were not born here but moved to the state for the climate, work, affordable homes, or Western values.

    After his second marriage, to a well-connected heiress to a beer distributorship here, McCain in 1980 moved to Arizona and set out to win a seat in Congress. He and his wife, Cindy, purchased a house in Mesa in 1982, within the First Congressional District, where incumbent Rep. John Rhodes (R) was unexpectedly retiring.

    McCain's first campaign, engineered by top Rhodes consultant Jay Smith, is legendary here. The novice politician boned up on Arizona issues � mainly water, mining, and native American rights � and took to the streets. For six hours a day, six days a week, McCain knocked on doors, introduced himself to thousands of people, and wore out three pairs of shoes in the process � maintaining a blistering pace even as the mercury soared above 100 degrees F. His father-in-law's company and connections, too, provided McCain an entree to the state's corporate and political leaders.

    "He's quite simply the hardest-working candidate that I ever encountered in 35 years of being involved in political campaigns," says Mr. Smith, CEO of Smith & Harroff Inc., a political consulting firm in Alexandria, Va., who worked with McCain for a decade. "No one comes close to the energy level and enthusiasm that he displayed obviously in his first campaign, but [also] in all his subsequent campaigns.... He is just indefatigable."

    During that first Republican primary, some rivals tried to tag McCain a carpetbagger and an opportunist. That not only didn't stick, but McCain turned it to his advantage. As Smith recounts it (and as detailed in Robert Timberg's book "The Nightingale's Song"), McCain fielded questions about those claims for weeks. But one night, apparently fed up, he responded, rather hotly.

    "Listen pal, I spent 22 years in the Navy. My father was in the Navy. My grandfather was in the Navy. We in the military service tend to move a lot.... I wish I could have had the luxury, like you, of growing up and living and spending my entire life in a nice place like the First District of Arizona, but I was doing other things. As a matter of fact, when I think about it now, the place I lived longest in my life was Hanoi," referring to the 5-1/2 years he spent as a POW in the infamous prison in North Vietnam.

    Smith says there was silence for a few moments, then thunderous applause.

    McCain won the GOP primary, one of his closest races ever. The general election, as well as subsequent elections to the US Senate, was pretty much a walk in the park for the honored war hero.

    Help during the Keating Five scandal
    Most experts say his service to Arizona has been stellar, except for the so-called Keating Five scandal of the late 1980s. Five senators, including McCain, were investigated for meeting with regulators on behalf of Charles Keating, who was trying to save his ailing savings and loan. After hearings ended in 1991, McCain received the mildest rebuke of the five: "poor judgment."

    McCain himself has said it's the worst thing that's happened to him, even worse than imprisonment in North Vietnam. Most experts say he survived it in part because he works well with the press and in part because the Arizona Republican Party stood behind him.

    But that, now, is part of their disaffection with him, experts say.

    "The religious right that is now so opposed to him think they saved his career by standing up for him [during the Keating Five scandal]," says Bruce Merrill, a political scientist and pollster at Arizona State University in Tempe. "They think he deserted them by moving to the center seven years ago when he ran for president, which you have to do to run. But that is behind some of the hard feelings those on the far right have."

    The Arizona GOP is split in its support for McCain, say most experts, though they can't tell how big a faction is disaffected. A recall effort in the summer of 2001 by far-right Republicans had appeared to be gathering momentum, but was abruptly ended after the 9/11 attacks. This spring, in a straw poll for president at a state Republican Party convention, McCain received only about 5 percent of the vote. Moreover, he received just 47 percent of the vote � not high for a favorite son, these experts say � during the February presidential primary here.

    But Dr. Merrill draws a distinction between GOP party regulars and generic Republican voters.

    "Republican Party leaders have not been terribly supportive of [McCain]," Merrill says. "But the party, being made up of regular Republicans, like him, respect him, and give him very high marks."

    Few in the party complain publicly about McCain, but Joe Arpaio, a popular Republican sheriff, tells of being on the receiving end of McCain's wrath.

    A rent in the GOP tent
    Sheriff Arpaio of Maricopa County, known for creating a "tent city" in the desert for inmates, clothing them in pink underwear, and feeding them cheap bologna sandwiches, says he first ran afoul of McCain during his 2000 presidential bid. McCain had sought his endorsement, and Arpaio says he replied that he'd probably give it. Then he didn't hear from McCain about a public appearance or announcement for more than a year. Meanwhile, George W. Bush visited the state and Arpaio's tent city, and asked for his endorsement. Arpaio complied.

    "McCain found my phone number that night � he called my house but he didn't reach me," Arpaio recalls.

    During Arpaio's next reelection campaign for sheriff, McCain endorsed Arpaio's opponent.

    They didn't meet again until about four years ago at a baseball game in Phoenix, where Arpaio sat with Mr. Bush.

    "McCain was surprised that I was there, next to the president, and he kind of turned away from me," Arpaio says. "He was a little cold."

    Arpaio endorsed and served as co-chair of Mitt Romney's primary campaign here. He says he's willing to help McCain now � if McCain asks for his support.

    Even if a significant share of GOP voters close ranks and come out to the polls for McCain in November, the bigger question is, what will registered Independents do? McCain has been able to tap into their support in the past, but experts note a great deal of support among them for Obama as well. In Mr. de Berge's latest poll, for example, Independent voters were split evenly between McCain and the Democrats.

    "The battleground is going to be over the Independents," de Berge says. "When you look at their position on who can do a better job, they poll 2 to 1 on the side of Democrats�. They are a very fickle bunch of people, but now they lean toward 'throw the rascals out.' "
    "The simple conclusion for Arizona is that this could be a competitive state," says Earl de Berge, director of the Behavior Research Center, which conducts the Rocky Mountain Poll. "As presidential material, with him so closely aligned to the mainstream right-wing politics of the White House, he doesn't have the types of numbers we would expect to see."

    The latest Rocky Mountain Poll, conducted before Democrats settled on Sen. Barack Obama as their candidate, shows McCain winning Arizona over the Illinois senator by 11 percentage points. But in the same poll released May 24, fewer than 4 in 10 Arizonans said they see McCain as the best candidate to deal with two top issues: exiting Iraq and reviving the US economy.

    Rugged individualism and a "can-do" spirit are embedded in the DNA of the American Southwest, including Arizona � and they are characteristics that seem a match for McCain's own.

    But the state, among the fastest growing in the US, has changed with the influx of newcomers who hold views that are not as grounded in the rock-ribbed conservatism of Arizona's Barry Goldwater days. That makes politics here less predictable than in the past: In 1996, Arizonans voted for Bill Clinton, the first time they'd chosen a Democrat for president since Harry Truman won here in 1948. They swung back to the Republican side in 2000 and 2004, but in 2006's congressional elections they handed two GOP seats to the Democrats.

    Moreover, there's some residual disaffection for McCain within the Republican Party here, say political observers.

    The religious right, in particular, doesn't like that he voted against President Bush's tax cuts, pressed hard for campaign-finance reform that they see as curtailing political free speech, and backed an immigration measure that included a path to citizenship for illegal immigrants and a guest-worker program. Some say he's a "show horse" in the Senate, not a "workhorse," especially since his first presidential run, citing a low vote-casting record. (He's skipped almost 61 percent of floor votes in the current 110th Congress, a time when he's been on the campaign trail. In the previous three sessions, he missed on average 5.3 percent of floor votes, according to a Washington Post online database.) Others point to his temper and a stubborn streak.

    "He's got a real problem with the social conservatives and die-hard Bush supporters," says David Berman, a senior research fellow with Arizona State University's Morrison Institute. "Contrary to his claims that he doesn't have a bad temper, he's blown up at quite a few people here. He doesn't tolerate fools easily."

    "On the other hand," Dr. Berman adds, "he has so much appeal with moderate Republicans, Democrats, and even independents that he doesn't need that base for a statewide vote."

    McCain's hard push for office
    McCain is like a lot of people who live in Arizona: They were not born here but moved to the state for the climate, work, affordable homes, or Western values.

    After his second marriage, to a well-connected heiress to a beer distributorship here, McCain in 1980 moved to Arizona and set out to win a seat in Congress. He and his wife, Cindy, purchased a house in Mesa in 1982, within the First Congressional District, where incumbent Rep. John Rhodes (R) was unexpectedly retiring.

    McCain's first campaign, engineered by top Rhodes consultant Jay Smith, is legendary here. The novice politician boned up on Arizona issues � mainly water, mining, and native American rights � and took to the streets. For six hours a day, six days a week, McCain knocked on doors, introduced himself to thousands of people, and wore out three pairs of shoes in the process � maintaining a blistering pace even as the mercury soared above 100 degrees F. His father-in-law's company and connections, too, provided McCain an entree to the state's corporate and political leaders.

    "He's quite simply the hardest-working candidate that I ever encountered in 35 years of being involved in political campaigns," says Mr. Smith, CEO of Smith & Harroff Inc., a political consulting firm in Alexandria, Va., who worked with McCain for a decade. "No one comes close to the energy level and enthusiasm that he displayed obviously in his first campaign, but [also] in all his subsequent campaigns.... He is just indefatigable."

    During that first Republican primary, some rivals tried to tag McCain a carpetbagger and an opportunist. That not only didn't stick, but McCain turned it to his advantage. As Smith recounts it (and as detailed in Robert Timberg's book "The Nightingale's Song"), McCain fielded questions about those claims for weeks. But one night, apparently fed up, he responded, rather hotly.

    "Listen pal, I spent 22 years in the Navy. My father was in the Navy. My grandfather was in the Navy. We in the military service tend to move a lot.... I wish I could have had the luxury, like you, of growing up and living and spending my entire life in a nice place like the First District of Arizona, but I was doing other things. As a matter of fact, when I think about it now, the place I lived longest in my life was Hanoi," referring to the 5-1/2 years he spent as a POW in the infamous prison in North Vietnam.

    Smith says there was silence for a few moments, then thunderous applause.

    McCain won the GOP primary, one of his closest races ever. The general election, as well as subsequent elections to the US Senate, was pretty much a walk in the park for the honored war hero.

    Help during the Keating Five scandal
    Most experts say his service to Arizona has been stellar, except for the so-called Keating Five scandal of the late 1980s. Five senators, including McCain, were investigated for meeting with regulators on behalf of Charles Keating, who was trying to save his ailing savings and loan. After hearings ended in 1991, McCain received the mildest rebuke of the five: "poor judgment."

    McCain himself has said it's the worst thing that's happened to him, even worse than imprisonment in North Vietnam. Most experts say he survived it in part because he works well with the press and in part because the Arizona Republican Party stood behind him.

    But that, now, is part of their disaffection with him, experts say.

    "The religious right that is now so opposed to him think they saved his career by standing up for him [during the Keating Five scandal]," says Bruce Merrill, a political scientist and pollster at Arizona State University in Tempe. "They think he deserted them by moving to the center seven years ago when he ran for president, which you have to do to run. But that is behind some of the hard feelings those on the far right have."

    The Arizona GOP is split in its support for McCain, say most experts, though they can't tell how big a faction is disaffected. A recall effort in the summer of 2001 by far-right Republicans had appeared to be gathering momentum, but was abruptly ended after the 9/11 attacks. This spring, in a straw poll for president at a state Republican Party convention, McCain received only about 5 percent of the vote. Moreover, he received just 47 percent of the vote � not high for a favorite son, these experts say � during the February presidential primary here.

    But Dr. Merrill draws a distinction between GOP party regulars and generic Republican voters.

    "Republican Party leaders have not been terribly supportive of [McCain]," Merrill says. "But the party, being made up of regular Republicans, like him, respect him, and give him very high marks."

    Few in the party complain publicly about McCain, but Joe Arpaio, a popular Republican sheriff, tells of being on the receiving end of McCain's wrath.

    A rent in the GOP tent
    Sheriff Arpaio of Maricopa County, known for creating a "tent city" in the desert for inmates, clothing them in pink underwear, and feeding them cheap bologna sandwiches, says he first ran afoul of McCain during his 2000 presidential bid. McCain had sought his endorsement, and Arpaio says he replied that he'd probably give it. Then he didn't hear from McCain about a public appearance or announcement for more than a year. Meanwhile, George W. Bush visited the state and Arpaio's tent city, and asked for his endorsement. Arpaio complied.

    "McCain found my phone number that night � he called my house but he didn't reach me," Arpaio recalls.

    During Arpaio's next reelection campaign for sheriff, McCain endorsed Arpaio's opponent.

    They didn't meet again until about four years ago at a baseball game in Phoenix, where Arpaio sat with Mr. Bush.

    "McCain was surprised that I was there, next to the president, and he kind of turned away from me," Arpaio says. "He was a little cold."

    Arpaio endorsed and served as co-chair of Mitt Romney's primary campaign here. He says he's willing to help McCain now � if McCain asks for his support.

    Even if a significant share of GOP voters close ranks and come out to the polls for McCain in November, the bigger question is, what will registered Independents do? McCain has been able to tap into their support in the past, but experts note a great deal of support among them for Obama as well. In Mr. de Berge's latest poll, for example, Independent voters were split evenly between McCain and the Democrats.

    "The battleground is going to be over the Independents," de Berge says. "When you look at their position on who can do a better job, they poll 2 to 1 on the side of Democrats�. They are a very fickle bunch of people, but now they lean toward 'throw the rascals out.' "