part three

Check back to part duex to get a refresher.

I lost some direction with my last post. I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't discuss the past like this any further. But this is my apologetic, dammit! I did this to ease some restlessness and because I enjoy writing.

In the beginning my hand was forced and I felt at times like I just wasn't on her level. And then somehow my universe flipped and I was engulfed. Along the way, all those things that she saw in me and was fascinated were fading. She wasn't looking to idealize me anymore but looking at me critically. If you look for flaws and reasons why things won't work thats what you'll see and vice-versa. I think I opened up too much. I was open, more than I ever been. That was a big accomplishment for me, but I showed all my insecurities and all my secrets who I was and it just changed how she saw me as a person. I gave up ALOT and I changed alot because of her. I did so much for the relationship and her that I don't think she really knows about or gives me credit for.

As things progressed she got more and more resistant to me. People have differences all the time. Maybe thats my fault, I don't know. The expectations she put on me were things I couldn't get live up to. It makes you really feel inadequate. We hadn't been together long enough in my estimationt to start using certain events or certain things to say how I would be as a father how I am and how it conflicted with her.

We did fight a lot, most of it was attributed to these expectations, a lot of them were just not having any understanding in place. I can remember what we fought about, why it prolonged... It was stupid to put it bluntly. You know, its either a really good thing when someone can stir up those kinds of emotions and feelings that creates a fight, its either a really good thing or a really bad thing. I know I wasn't perfect at all. In fact, sometimes I was a big dooche. But some of the fights we had were so ridiculous I can't believe that it was an even an issue with her.

I know long distance was a big factor though we never really talked about it. It's pretty expensive to have a relationship across the country. I know she had bills to pay and loans. That's completely understandable. She's afraid to take chances and get hurt by me. That's why she pulled back at times and that's why she didn't open up the way I did. There's also the issue of lying to her parents about why she was travelling and what she was doing out there. At her age and her stage of her career it didn't make sense. I get it... Even now, I don't how patient we could've been with the whole thing. Though I always wondered how things would've turned out had we lived in the same city. I think things would've been SOO different. I always wondered if she gave me some credit. That would'be been SOO different as well. Who knows?

You know what sucks? I really enjoyed spending time with her friends, her sister and family, It's part of the whole thing that you lose when you're not in a relationship. Her sister treats me the same way she does (pleasant and polite but at a distance). There's so many possibilities that are missed now, but I have to live with it.

So I guess that's the end of this thing. This actually sucks for an apologetic but atleast I got to say my piece. Hopefully, this helps my massive, yet incredibly fragile ego. In the end I'm better for knowing her. The course of my life was changed when I met her and I'll always have that.

the more you know

When a friend that you've known for a long time changes their behavior, you figure it out and you ask them. But when you're lost in your own world you only figure out later, or when it's too late and then you feel like an ass.

One of my best friends from college had kept asking me to hang out and my schedule couldn't get him in. I didn't think about it because I figured sooner or later that we would hang out. Truthfully, I wasn't in the mood to hang out, I was waiting for a time where I knew it would be something cool or something more meaningful. Nothing against him. We always do the same stuff and it just doesn't appeal to me like it used to.

Well, today he told me he's got a good shot at the opportunity he's been looking at for a while in London. Suddenly, it started to come together for me; his drunken rant on his birthday about our friendship and his wanting to do more stuff together...

He'll probably be gone in June/July. I wish he could stay and do what he's doing here but he needs this more than anybody. He's still a kid. After knowing each other for almost 8 years, GOD love the guy, he hasn't changed much. He needs to go explore and grow. And hopefully I'll be there to see that growth...

my first bachelor party

First thing I gotta say is that I am absolutely shocked that I made a full recovery already. For sure I thought this was a 2-3 day process of water, extra-greasy food, and a lot of sleep, but I actually turned it around after a good night's sleep. Maybe I'm getting my second-wind... finally

Anyways, this weekend was so eventful. Not only did we do a lot of fun things, and "man-ly" things, but I got a lot of insight from some married guys and an about-to-be-married guy on marriage, kids, and just life. I drank a ton of mexican beers and now I will be spending the next 2 weeks working off those calories.

Despite all that it was, there's a lot that it wasn't. It's hard to explain but it seemed not climactic. These things are supposed to be greatest time and everybody remembers it forever. I'll remember some things, but I think I'm just harder to please and looking for something more than a good time.

The "IT" Factor

Today in an interview over the phone a very successful guy told me that I had that proverbial "It" Factor. That really surprised the the hell out of me. It was probably the single greatest thing someone has said to me who doesn't know me. I never thought on my best day that I would have it, or that someone would recognize is as it.

Well... he called me an hour later and told me he really liked me and that I remind me of himself at my age. He then told me that my lack of experience would be a factor in their decision for the 2 opportunities to lead the new LA branch. But then he told me he didn't want to be like Michael Jordan's high school coach. The same coach who cut the greatest basketball player of all time. To be in analogy like that makes you feel uncomfortable. It adds a lot of pressure. And at the same time it adds fuel to the fire that burns within you to be great, not good. To be the best, not just better.

Amit... DEFINITELY Non-Hunter

So here's my funny PETA story. They did some 'scientific study' on hunters where it's another psychological thing to make up for having a small penis. HAHA, I wonder how they came up with this study.

Hunting Small Game

"New Study Links Hunting to Small Penis Size," said the press release, citing work from the "Diminutive Male Genitalia Disorder Research Organization."

Yes, it was another one of those April fool spoofs, this one from the People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals, and a couple of papers, including London's Independent, bit. But the PETA folks were surprised at an e-mail from Washington Times outdoors editor Gene Mueller.

"You might have something there. . . It might apply to a fellow I know who's not well endowed, but who's one heck of a hunter," Mueller wrote. "But then there's my brother, Lou, who's amply endowed but also loves to hunt."

Mueller says he "kind of suspected it was just tongue-in-cheek" and that he was just baiting his "enemies. They'd like nothing better than for me to disappear, because I write about hunting and I advocate hunting."

PETA spokesman Michael McGraw says outdoors writers such as Mueller "don't necessarily present a balanced view" and that the gag was "a lighthearted way to draw attention to a serious issue," which is "killing of defenseless animals."

Annual I killed a dog race

PETA usually cracks me up and scares at other times. They put the value of animals over the life of humans (its true, if you check their by-laws and there terrorist activity against animal testing labs, etc...) but they're right on the nose for this thing. Imagine you had the ability to run endless at top speed. Would you use this special talent and run yourself into the ground? Probably not. These guys abuse the hell out of these animals out of some stupid tradition. If someone forced you to be awesome all the time and I understand it might be hard for some people (J/K) you would go nuts. So why force these animals to do this. They don't even know what the hell is going on.

Musher Accused of Cruelty, PETA Calls for End to Iditarod

As the 1,000-mile Iditarod sled dog race through Alaska comes to a close, the event is under more scrutiny than ever before because of charges that a top musher abused his dogs. Ramy Brooks was disqualified this year after race officials said he beat his dogs. And now a schoolteacher has told the Anchorage Daily News that the abuse was more severe than had been previously reported.

When Brooks' team refused to move, said 28-year-old Maude Paniptchuk, who teaches kindergarten through second grade at Golovin School, he kicked the dogs and hit them with his fist and a ski pole. He didn't merely spank them with a thin piece of lath used as a trail marker, as Iditarod officials said Sunday.


People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals says the entire event, by its very nature, is cruel. PETA notes that dogs die during the Iditarod regularly, and that many more dogs are injured, and the organization says criminal charges should be brought against Brooks. Alaska's state police say they will not conduct a criminal investigation. In any event, this week's news is a black eye for the Iditarod.

plan b continued

There's a fight or flight response in everyone where you either man-up or you run. It supposed to go back to the cave men. I know for me, when things go terribly wrong, my mind goes blank for a while, I'm letting complete panic set in. Sometimes it overcomes and most of the time I go to plan B.

Sometimes the light bulb goes off and sometimes you just have to cut your losses and call it a day.

But I really find it fascinating how the mind works when things go the complete opposite the way you thought they would. Like when you're at work and you completely screw something up big and everybody is going to know about it.

Getting taken completely by surprise can never be as good as it can be bad, I really believe that. Like you could find out your wife is pregnant that same day your other child passes away in a tragic accident. They can never be even...

Plan B

This morning I was listening to an interview with the current Memphis basketball coach and former UMass coach John Calipari. He was talking about in the pressure situations how he wants his players to handle themselves. He said it so eloquently, and I can't do justice to his words.

One thing he said was that physilogically there's not much of a difference between fear and anger. And yes, this validates every single star wars metaphor anyone has ever made... (Yoda, in Episode 1 and Episode 4, Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering, etc...)Anyways, he said that he never tells his kids to play angry because its too close to fear. Play afraid and you're D-O-N-E.

But the main thing that he was talking about that really got to me was plan B. He said what you do after your whole game-plan collapses is a microcosm of life. When you get hit with that haymaker, you have to regroup, gather yourself and think about plan B, quickly.

I'll finish this later...

st. pattys day

This was like a freaking major holiday in college. Hell, even last year was awesome. Now, I'm just not so into this day anymore. Since I'm not a big drinker like I used to be, its almost a chore. But I can't forget the gin buckets, the frat parties, my irish name (McJain).

I went to a karoake bar, , wore green, busted my go-to song, had a couple yager shots(yack!), hung out with a friend, made some new ones, had my shirt smelled (no its not aqui di gio and thank you :)), got home early and worked in the morning.

And it so it goes on, this thing of mine...

Next up, Cinco de Mayo, which is actually more festive for me and I get to fake like I know how to salsa. Another big celebration with binge drinking and mexican food!

organized confusion

These are only some of the ones I can think of off the top of my head. Last week I was having discussions with people at all stages of their life about all sorts of different relationships that envoke the heart.

People can confuse lust for love.
People can money for happiness.
People can confuse a warm conversation with, that person wants to be with me.
People can confuse the value of wanting/needing a close relationship in any form with a close friend of the opposite sex and end up loving them.
People can confuse someone that is so different from what they know or have known, in to the ideal person.
People can confuse the best thing that has ever happened to them, into the best thing that WILL ever happen to them.

And with all these confusions, we're so certain sometimes that what we believe is right, that it doesn't really matter that we're confused about it. Because being confused doesn't always have a right or wrong answer, it's more about knowing you're confused and knowing what is you feel in your gut. People know in their gut sometimes that things can't work out or won't work out for a particular reason, but a lot of people overlook these things for the present moment. And they know its there.

Everyday I try to do a gut check on many things to make sure that I'm not confused about life. But its hard because it takes a little more confidence in yourself than I can say I have at the moment to say that I'm doing the right things.

thanks Elaine

Attitude

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.
Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company ...a church ...a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past ...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude ...I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you ...we are in charge of our attitudes.

-Charles Swindoll

no offense

When someone says, no offense, SOMEONE IS ABOUT TO GET OFFENDED...

That is all I have tonight. GOOD NITE NOW!!

the big dance

It's already March 14th... That disturbs me how fast time flies without even taking a notice. I try to live day by day and in those pack in alot. But I was just thinking where I was 1 year ago from now, 6 months back... and rewinded the clock to 3 months. Its hard to condense all that "life" into a few sentences but the main thing that comes to mind is how much I grew and learned in that period. I also realized how even more tough life is. That being said, its March, and I got the madness. Last week for whatever the reason was I couldn't even look forward to this. I'm looking forward to it now!!

The NCAA Men's Division 1-A tournament is the best time of the year in sports. It's better than the superbowl or the NBA playoffs or the World Series. Its an unbelievable time in sports. Everybody wants to watch David beat Goliath and they want to see if they can predict who the national champion will be. Then there's all those kids on spring break following their school through the tournament of 64. Heroes emerge, legends are made, Cinderalla slips on the shoe and hearts are broken. If you're watching any games, watch the bench. Watch those kids that don't even get into the game. Watch when their team slays the giant how their raw emotion is the essence of the entire tournament. To my delight I will have the privelege of watching a ton of games this weekend.

Who doesn't want to see that team that should've never made it this far, reach further down inside and show the courage and heart to keep swinging at their heavily-favored opponent. It's delightful and uplifting to those souls who don't think the impossible can happen. Even if you don't think you're good enough or you are outmatched you still have a chance. When you've given up, you've given up hope and that's dangerous territory to be in.

So let's watch the drama unfold! Am I stupid enough to pick Arizona not only win their first round game but beat the number 1 seed in the entire tournament and defending national champion?? Hell Yeah!!!

2nd article for EWORKMARKETS

Like I said, I threw some serious jack at this investment to be an independent and highly successful business consultant so check out the article and tell me if its helpful.

No really, what is it that you do?
Being an entrepreneur and working with a lot of entrepreneurs, I’ve come across a strange realization. At first I thought it was just by pure coincidence that the intelligent business men and women I had come encountered could not clearly describe what they did, or what their business was in. I always thought I just didn’t understand it properly.
Let's see if you're smarter than I am. Here are, in their own words, two of the descriptions I could not understand. The test for understanding is not whether you know the literal meaning of all the words and concepts involved, but whether, after reading, you know what product or service actually changes hands.
1. "I a consultant specializing in Health Care Technology, Health Claims and Practice Mgmt services. I advise on systems analysis and structured design to simple claims handling procedures."
2. "We sell everyday items that everyone needs at reasonable prices."
After mentally correcting the grammatical errors in #1, I’m assuming that this business has something to do with medical claims against insurance. I know a few systems analysts as well so I can also assume that this has something to do with the procesing of electronic information. I also suspect that this consultant services physicians in private practice, but I am still unclear for who she works (hospitals, HMOs, insurance companies) When someone says health care technology it could mean many different including lab work. Too much remains unclear.
Now listen to this; "I help small to mid-sized medical practices (one to five physicians) computerize their insurance claims procedures or simplify their existing system to save on time, money and aggravation." Now that makes simple sense to me. And despite being understandable, I very much doubt that it would confuse those who were knew enough to find the consultant's jargon crystal clear.
Organizations and entrepreneuers must be beware of jargon in the description of their business. Its most damaging characteristic is that people who have heard the word or phrase will never admit they can't translate it into plain English -- they just won't move to hire you, refer appropriate business to you or help you get publicity.
Here’s one thing that can help tell you if if your business description makes sense. Ask five people not in your field to listen to it or read it and tell you in their own words what you sell. If more than one of the five can't tell you accurately, you are definitely missing out on business. Try making it so simple a 12-year-old gets it, such as by specifying the general benefit a client gains from working with you.
The problem in #2 is vagueness. Everyday items like tires? Food? Paper clips? Aspirin?
Other problems I found in those business descriptions included the lack of explaination of the purpose of the product. In a few other cases, I couldn't visualize the product from the description. For example, "We offer personalized greetings that tell you of all the world events that happened on the day you were born. Makes a great gift, more personalized than a greeting card. Great for framing!" I can only guess that this is a physical piece of paper, but it leaves too many questions and not the right questions that a consumer should be asking.
As a professional writer, I know that if there's the any kind of ambiguity in a communication, someone will misunderstand it. And where marketing is concerned, that means a lost opportunity for business. Don't overlook the value of a clear, concise description of your product or business. The time you spend tinkering with it, testing and polishing it will come back to you in profits.
In this day and age of constant branding and marketing efforts in every single type of media, we are completely inundated with marketing information. As a consumer, take 1 hour out of your day to focus on the amount of labels, or marketing messages that are being put in front of you. You won’t even catch half of them but you will realize that there is too many to count. Our brains process this information to only keep track of relevant advertisements. Imagine if your consumer base is not clear on what you do. You will be weeded out of their thoughts systematically!!

the beach

Its after midnite and I'm calling it quits on work tonight. There was so much shit going on today that I couldn't even keep up. Business is good, opportunities are emerging and I'm keeping my hopes. That being said, it was still a very stressful day.

Thanks DST!! Now after work I can go to the beach and try to relax. I sat and I thought about a lot of things. Tried to clear my mind by watching the waves crash over the beach. I think I figured out a couple of big components for my happiness.

1. Redemption - my life needs a chance to make up for all the wrong things I've and bad decisions I've made big and small. It's all about finding some equality in the things that happend to us in life. Who knows if that's even possible.

2. Resolution - I need resolution. On many things, but I need to feel that there was a reason to everything and I can see that. I also to get some resolution on my terms and on the universe. That's impossible I think.

At the temple on Sunday, the leader of the study group said something that stuck in my mind. He said if bhagwan (GOD) walked through the door and we could recognize him for being GOD, and he said come with me to salvation. Think about it in the most impromptu terms, GOD comes to your front door and says come with me to salvation.

Would you go? You will be leaving this worldly life. I thought about it way after he mentioned it. I would hesitate because of what I would be giving up. I would want to stay to finish up things. (Get resolution and redemption - see the tie in) I would want to say good bye to family and some friends. I would want to do the things I love just one last time. And this is where it gets interesting you could say; even with all that stuff on the planet now, and me having access to all those people, still doesn't make me happy. So what I am holding on to that for? All these worldy things are the cause and affect to our temporary happiness and sadness.

It gives me some peace of mind atleast. Because it's not like I got a problem here. I'm too attached to this world that I don't even know what to base happiness on. So what the hell is real happiness? I don't know.

Hey bhagwan, if that offer is on the table I'd accept in most humbling manner....

P.S. That last line is a joke..

R O I

I've reached a strange phase in life - it might be a simple phase - where I've become very picky about who I hang out with and what I do. I've become less tolerable for people who don't fit into my circle and less motivated to making NEW friends. It's been growing trend of mine. It's not that I hate mankind or I don't want to meet new people but people just run together. That's probably why I always forget names and faces...

Here's a good example: This weekend I have a birthday party at a club I have to go to. I don't really want to go, because we're not that good friends, it's in a club (I don't like to go clubs unless its a special event), and I'm not really into hanging out in an Asian club.

So I'm kinda stuck, because my bestfriend is dragging me there and this friend's cousin is one my BOYS from B-School, CMS trip, and gym rat. I haven't seen the guy since he started work in October and I gotta see him. To add to the normal stress of going somewhere where you don't want to be and hanging out in atmosphere you don't want to be in, I have to get up early to go to the temple the next morning.

GREAT!! What's my return on investment for going? Not very high. See, when there's so much opportunity to go out and hang out with people, I need to know what my ROI is going to be. This party I'm pretty much obligated to go, but I'm ok with that because I'm getting to hang out with my best friend and see an old friend.

I've become bored with my life. I don't want to hang out with anybody I just want to stay in my apartment and sit on my computer and work or do something productive. I'm not even really looking forward to March Madness. Usually, its my favorite time of the year and right now I haven't even started doing any research on it. I haven't bet on sports in months. It seems like ever since my girlfriend broke up with me, my life has been filled with negativity. It's been brought on me... I'll own up to some of it. But most of it just happened to be a coincidence I guess. And I tried so hard to break out of this funk. I tried to be in the present and and move on. And life just keeps coming at me with more and more.

So I slowed my run down to a crawl and I'm just taking it as it comes at me. Nothing else I can do.

part duex

So almost 1 month ago I started my apologetic and now I've come to write another chapter. I left off somewhere in September. In October I made first trip to the East Coast to visit and it was everything I expected and even MORE. There's certain moments that are just etched in my memory. Running through the rain and how she turned and smiled at me... It's like an art lover catching a glimpse of the Mona Lisa for the first time and just knowing that you'll get to see it over and over again.

My feelings were so strong at this point that I took a big leap and hung big mozzaball out there. Its still sitting out there... Later on that day walking around I realized how much control over myself I had just given up her, it was a little disheartening and it made me think that she could really hurt me.

When you reach a certain age and you've dated alot of people had alot of experience, you know precisely what you're looking for. It's an internal thing that you realize. It doesn't take much thought, you just know.

You know why it didn't work out with anybody else because that person came into your life. Suddenly, its obvious why things worked out how they did. Well... It's a very tough pill to swallow after knowing all this and not having that person anymore.

That's all I have for now...

im on the bandwagon

The steady stream of good news about green tea is getting so hard to ignore that even java junkies are beginning to sip mugs of the deceptively delicate brew. You'd think the daily dose of disease-fighting, inflammation-squelching antioxidants - long linked with heart protection - would be enough incentive, but wait, there's more! Lots more.

CUT YOUR CANCER RISK
Several polyphenols - the potent antioxidants green tea's famous for - seem to help keep cancer cells from gaining a foothold in the body, by discouraging their growth and then squelching the creation of new blood vessels that tumors need to thrive. Study after study has found that people who regularly drink green tea reduce their risk of breast, stomach, esophagus, colon, and/or prostate cancer.

SOOTHE YOUR SKIN
Got a cut, scrape, or bite, and a little leftover green tea? Soak a cotton pad in it. The tea is a natural antiseptic that relieves itching and swelling. Try it on inflamed breakouts and blemishes, sunburns, even puffy eyelids. And that's not all. In the lab, green tea helps block sun-triggered skin cancer, whether you drink it or apply it directly to the skin - which is why you're seeing green tea in more and more sunscreens and moisturizers.

STEADY YOUR BLOOD PRESSURE
Having healthy blood pressure - meaning below 120/80 - is one thing. Keeping it that way is quite another. But people who sip just half a cup a day are almost 50 percent less likely to wind up with hypertension than non-drinkers. Credit goes to the polyphenols again (especially one known as ECGC). They help keep blood vessels from contracting and raising blood pressure.

PROTECT YOUR MEMORY, OR YOUR MOM'S
Green tea may also keep the brain from turning fuzzy. Getting-up-there adults who drink at least two cups a day are half as likely to develop cognitive problems as those who drink less. Why? It appears that the tea's big dose of antioxidants fights the free-radical damage to brain nerves seen in Alzheimer's and Parkinson's.

STAY YOUNG
The younger and healthier your arteries are, the younger and healthier you are. So fight plaque build-up in your blood vessels, which ups the risk of heart disease and stroke, adds years to your biological age (or RealAge), and saps your energy too. How much green tea does this vital job take? About 10 ounces a day, which also deters your body from absorbing artery-clogging fat and cholesterol.

LOSE WEIGHT
Oh yeah, one more thing. Turns out that green tea speeds up your body's calorie-burning process. In the every-little-bit-counts department, this is good news!

Maybe, you gonna be the one that saves me.....

I have a big meeting tommorrow with a very important entrepreneur. I'm meeting with her, yes her, because SHE is an amazing business person with a ton of experience and a whole lot to share. She spoke at a conference last week and I missed it so I did my detective work and got her phone number and shot her a call. She agreed to meet with me, although hesitantly, so I could pick her brain about being a consultant and an entrepreneur. I've been doing this kind of stuff since college because I was trained by the best. You learn from the best and you challenge yourself to be the best, you humble your presence by the best if you're so lucky, and you become the best.

And when you reach that point, and it will hit you at some point in your life and you'll know when it does... that you are the best. And at the point, you have a duty, a responsibility to throw that rope back over the wall to the next kid and help that kid get over.

That's why I always help those that approach me as a successful entrepreneur (haha, its weird people see me that way because I i'm not even 20% there!~!) get my full attention and knowledge, whatever that is....

My whole point is that I'm lucky. Don't forget to give back to the community that raised you. You owe them.

Here's another great Oasis song. It has so many meanings to me. If you watched LOST a couple weeks ago you heard Charlie playing the acoustic version in a flashback for Damon and then he saves his life. I love the insignificant meanings.

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You're my wonderwall

Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me

Article for my new consulting business

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6 Critical Elements in a Successful Business Plan
From my experience and research, these are the elements that I find to be the most important in a successful business plan, Information was complied from various sources such as consultants, professors, businesses, venture capitalists, and private investors.

#6: Thorough and Complete Competitive Analysis
Many business plans stress the importance of how unique their company, product, or service is and in this manner no focus is placed on competitors. However, this can have an adverse, negative affect. If there are few or limited companies in a market space, it can imply that there may not be a large enough customer need to support the company’s products and/or services. According to a partner at a technology company, business plans should include a successful and/or public companies in a competitive space to prove there is a positive sign since it implies that the market size is large. It also gives investors the assurance that if management executes well, the company has ability to be a target for acquisition
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#5: Partnerships and Alliances
Forging partnerships and alliances to improve market penetration and/or operations has become commonplace in the new business world. It can also help brand a new company and add an install base of customers before the actual launch. These partnership agreements should be equitable and explicit in the business plan. They must seem logical and realistic to an investor. For instance, stating that Yahoo is a potential partner, but having nothing substantive to make this claim can be transparent to an investor causing them to lose confidence in the plan.

#4: Previous Success
Valuations of a company and investments are based on a firm’s projected performance. But, one of the best indicators of success is past performance, or a company’ track record. Business plans must show what quantitative milestones or accomplishments a company has achieved. Past success in achieving goals gives investors the assurance that the team will execute in the future. For start-up companies, providing a track record has to be more creative. Including a case-study within the business plan on a similar business venture or similar strategy employed by another business in parallel industry can provide enough insight. Also, the strength of the management team can instill belief in the business plan.

#3: Targeting Your Audience
Investors, like the rest of us, have different tastes and different backgrounds. One investor may love a business concept and/or business plan while the next may hate both. One investor might be more in-tune with marketing while another is strictly focused on operations because of their career backgrounds. It is essential to understand this as business plans are working documents and are under constant revisions.

#2: Providing a True Portrayal of the Market
Defining the market size for a company too broadly provides little to no value for the investor. For example, mentioning the trillion dollar U.S. healthcare or business process outsourcing markets are generally redundant because no company could reap $1 trillion in sales in either market. The company’s market space is a small part of that. Every business is going after a multibillion-dollar market. Be as narrowed down as possible about the possible size of the total market opportunity.” Defining and communicating a credible relevant market size and a plan to capture a significant share within this market is far more powerful and believable to investors.

#1: Accurate, Realistic Financial Projections
Many investors go straight to the financial analysis of the business plan to get the bottomline. It is imperative that the assumptions and projections in this section be realistic. Well-reasoned financial assumptions and projections communicate prime operations and credibility. By utilizing projections on the financial performance of public companies in their marketplace can provide proper evidence to the sustainability of the business. Be prepared to have this section examined in-depth with many questions coming from investors.

All in all, a business plan must include a great idea an, and a sellable opportunity that can be seized. The ROI (Return on Investment) must be something that the investors view as an affordable risk. The presentation of the plan must exude confidence and look sharp so that the audience knows this plan was shown the utmost sincerity and thought. That way the audience will be asking the right questions at the end.

Oasis - Champagne Supernova

Bare with me, one of these days I'll figure out how to add music in here so you can listen while you read the lyrics.

How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(guitar solo)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(a really long guitar solo)
(background - sounds like a bunch of "No"'s)
(birds chirping)
(more guitar)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
We were getting high <-- 9 times, background "Oooh-oooh"
(Fades out 7th-9th times to just one "Oooh-oooh")
(Song gets really quiet, fades to a peaceful guitar solo.)

the social butterfly effect

I've made a network of friends that is varied and large. I've been fortunate to be connected to such wonderful and amazing people. I've made friends everywhere with everyone and had bonds that and connections with the most unlikely of people.

Having so many friends is a blessing. I've always said and will always say its about getting from here (......................) to () with people. But somewhere along the way I've become lonely. A lot of people are good friends a lot of people I trust. Others I wouldn't give a second thought about.

I only have maybe 3 friends that I really go to. Even out of those 3 I don't come to them with everything. Living practically alone (I say practically because my roomate and I aren't exactly Laverne and Shirley, more like the Odd Couple) doesn't help me feel any more in touch with people. Since my family is far away and phone conversations only go so far.

Being in the present moment and enjoying others around is a good temporary cure. Isn't everything a temporary cure? I've always felt like I haven't found a group of friends where I can be 100% myself. Like I don't have to show only sides of who I am to fit in or have a bond with a group or individuals.

Keeping face and making a positive impact on others is how I make the most of it. Friends are out there and making friendly with everyone is a way to make an impression. I'm not sure anymore what the point is of having a million friends if you can't call any of them when you need them. Imagine if you did. You'd be overstepping boundaries like a mofo and reaching out hoping someone cared to be there.

skor candy bar r the G.O.A,T,

i've eaten 3 today.

check this out.

http://desiclub.com/community/culture/culture_article.cfm?id=298

my favorite is 15. i was always connected to her music especially her old stuff before her mainstream album that was pure jazz.

nup dawg

Last nite was the last time I'll see one of my friends for atleast 2 years. In saying good bye, we actually showed some emotion towards each other than anger in the last 3 1/2 years I've known him.

We're different people. For one thing I'm 6 years younger than him, for another, I'm more considerate and sensitive to others feelings, while he's more practical and logical in his approach to everything. That's where I felt a disconnect the whole time knew even though we were considered to be good friends by everyone else. We went to all the desi events together, crashed parties, threw parties, had copious amounts of fun and ridiculousness.

In the end, I'm always going to remember how unusual our friendship was and how profitable our partnership was/is. Even though he wasn't my closest friend and not one of my top ten favorite people after 3 1/2 years we still had a strong bond. I don't know who I'm gonna hang with on the weekends because looking back, we always seemed to end up at the same parties, or events even if I was determined to do something different and we always had a good time.

We'll keep in touch, he'll get engaged and I'll hear from him every once in a while and cycle continues.

dude

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