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gettng back on my journey

I spent the last week taking a short side trip off my current path in life. It was a wild journey in only a weeks time but I have to look at it as one of those vacations where you travel somewhere and you hope to get back there someday but it probably won't happen.

As i get back on my journey saddened, trudging along way below my normal pace, I'm left to think about a couple things.

1 - I always say, that I'd rather be a lion for a day than a lamb who lives forever. I took a risk. I'll take more.

2 - We focus too much in this world on what we're not and we forget what we are. We try to make up those differences in what we think we should be and don't spend time developing what we can be.

That's it, long and stressful week ahead of me and its coming up in a few hours.

chris brown - forever , embedding disabled

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jQmqmQz_nI

my last 24 hours...

"And we find at the end of a perfect day... the soul of a new friend :)"

I agree wholeheartedly.

M.I.A.

She's got a different sound to her music. She's Sri Lankan and my roommate gave me her CD 2 years ago. And now she'll be forever linked to the Superbad Crew, at least in my mind. I'm too lazy to look up the name of their production company name so I'm just going to call them the Superbad Crew. Anyways, love this song.

Six Dating Behaviors That Scare Single Men Away

1. Trash-talking your ex. Don't talk negatively about an ex-boyfriend in front of a guy you're dating. I don't care if you're on your first date or on your 15th date with a guy, don't ever trash-talk your ex. Your ex is somebody you dated, invited into your life, and with whom you spent a lot of time. So don't talk negatively about your ex in any way, because what a guy thinks when you do this is that if he ever becomes your ex that you're going to trash-talk him the same way. So, when a man asks you about your ex, you can politely say, "We are no longer together. It was a great relationship while it lasted, and I learned a lot." That's it.
2. Paranoia Runs Rampant. Here you are dating a man you really like, and the first couple of weeks are going well. Then, that first boys' night out happens. In the beginning, you send him a text that says, "Have a great time tonight!" As the night progresses, however, seeds of doubt start forming in your mind about what he's doing, and you start to think "Is he cheating on me? Is he flirting with other women? Where is he right now?" So then, you lob another text in to him asking "What's going on? What are you doing right now?" Even though he tells you he's just hanging out with his friends, you proceed to make a major blunder:
You start checking up on him with continuous texts throughout the night. This paranoia will push a man away.
You start checking up on him with continuous texts throughout the night. This paranoia will push a man away. So when you are dating a man and he's out with his friends, respect his "guy time" -- it will make you the cool woman he's always wanted to find.
3. Trash-talking other women. A huge mistake many women make is trash-talking other women in front of the man they're dating. For example, you are out with him when a woman walks by wearing a skimpy short skirt. You say, "Look how promiscuous that woman looks! I can't believe she is going around in public like that!" What you are doing when you make comments like this to a guy you're dating is telling him that you're not confident in the way you look. It tells him that you don't love who you are and haven't embraced your own body. You are planting a seed of doubt in him, causing him to wonder if he he should date someone else who is more confident (and tolerant). Don't trash-talk other women. It makes you look really insecure.
4. Fishing for compliments. This is something that can drive a man crazy. Here is a typical scenario: The guy you're dating looks at you and says, "You really look beautiful tonight!" Ten minutes later, you look at him and ask, "How do I look tonight?" Stop fishing for compliments. Real compliments come from the heart. Allow us to compliment you when we really mean it. If we don't give a compliment at the exact moment you desire it, just accept it and be OK with that.
5. Clingy and possessive. You don't need to do everything together. You're still getting to know him. If there are things he likes to do that simply don't interest you, be cool with it. You don't have to be joined at the hip. If you are going to a cocktail party together, you don't have to be next to him at every moment. If you see him speaking with some woman at the party, do not immediately run over and start grabbing his hand and giving him a big hug -- and certainly don't do this all night long. You are being clingy and possessive when you do this.
6. Pushing friends on him. Avoid pushing friends on us too soon. Example: A woman will hang out with a guy on the first or second date and say to him, "You have to meet my friends Jenna and Amy. You also have to meet my friends Phil and Anne; they're such a great couple, and you'll love them!" A man hears this and thinks, "I don't even know you yet. Can I get to know you for a month or two before I have to go meet all of your friends and be put on display as 'the boyfriend?'" We don't want to be "the boyfriend" right away. It's too much pressure. We want to get to know you slowly and learn what you're all about. Believe me, once we get to know you -- and like you -- we will be more willing to get to know all of your friends.
Following these tips will help you get past the first month of a new relationship with a man and avoid some of the major pitfalls that can end a new relationship before it even starts. Be the confident woman you really are so we have a chance to embrace you. Don't scare us off before we have a chance to get to know you!

hearsay

I heard something from someone that, had I known 2 years ago would have undoubtedly changed the course of history for at least 4 individuals myself included. I had to be secretive about it but it was a shocker when this little nugget of information was told to me as a matter of fact statement.

If I would have known then what I know now, I can say for sure things would be a lot different. Everyone is happy in the end it looks like but its fun to play what if...

time to reflect

I've given myself a week now to take a few steps back to look back at the last year or so. My life was consumed by YJA and 2008 convention. I gave everything I had with the hopes that I would be rewarded with positive results as an organization. I can say that i was paid back ten-fold.

I'm extremely happy with how I'm leaving the organization and success it has had as me being one of the key figures crucial to that success. There are so many things that I'm going to miss as I give up this position to someone else. There's a few elements that make it so unique to be involved with YJA. I know I can be a project manager and have similar success as a leader. But will I be involved with a group of individuals that are like family to me? Will I share that same type of bond? I don't know...

More importantly, will I be influence people the same way we did with our convention? Will we do something so good that is changes people's lives? I really hope I get an opportunity to be a part of that again.

With this type of position, there's a lot of power that is the easiest thing to miss. Without that power its easy to feel irrelevant. I'm going to miss that for sure...

But, I guess its time for me to move on as much as I want to hold on.