Kanye's new album

Some of my favorite lyrics from it from various songs:

La la la la
Wait 'til I get my money right
La la la la
Then you can't tell me nothing right?
Excuse me, is you saying something?
Uh, uh, you can't tell me nothing
You can't tell me nothing
Uh, uh, you can't tell me nothing
-------------------------------------------------
I don't know if you got a man or not
If you made plans or not
If God put me in your plans or not
I'm trippin', this drink got me sayin' alot
But I know that God put you in front of me
So how the hell could you front on me
-------------------------------------------------
Th-th-that that don't kill me
Can only make me stronger
I need you to hurry up now
Cause I can't wait much longer
I know I got to be right now
Cause I can't get much wronger
Man I been waitin' all night now
That's how long I've been on ya

I need ya right now
I need ya right now
------------------------------------------------

My big brother was Bigs brother
So here's a few words from your kid brother
If you admire somebody you should go ahead and tell um
People never get the flowers while they could still smell um
A idol in my eyes, God of the game
Heart of the city,Rockafella chain
Never be the same, never be another
Number 1 young Hov also my big brother

my new crush

Amy Winehouse... she's got a billion more issues than Angelina, but shes only 24 she sings to my soul. In addition to her unique look, shes jewish and shes from England. I'm not really into the tats or her husband. YES, YES, YES. For whatever reason, I got a HUGE thing for singers and I lose it to jazz singers. If you ever heard Billie Holiday and she sang those blues to your soul you know what I'm talking about. Why is it all the good ones have the issues and never live up to their full potential? Instead we're just left with lightning in the bottle saying what if... Just off the top of my head Tupac, Biggie, Charlie Parker, Kurt Kobain, Jimi Hendrix, Jim Morrison, Len Bias, Chris Farley, and the list sadly continues. Please Amy, at make it to 30.

my 301st post

and the cheese stands alone...

You know? From that one song. Its hard for me to admit it but sometimes I get so lonely. I have friends and family but I don't know I feel like I can't talk to them about everything. I always feels like I'm holding back when I talk to them. It sucks when you don't have someone to talk to. Some companionship really goes a long way when you haven't had any in a long time. I think its my time of the month... eh

a beautiful song...

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
"Just what your worth"

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

I'm BAAAK

The movie Knocked UP. It's a great movie not only because the dialog is not like any movie I've seen and its just freakin hilarious as well, but it was extra special to me because it got me thinking.

Even though its one of the most unwanted of scenarios (impregnating a stranger), I thought it was a very similar concept. Arranged marriage. It's a crude simile but I think you can modernize it and make it work. They're both mainly judged on first impressions, superficialities and some chemistry. One takes alcohol to get the 2 together and the other takes family pressure. One takes a baby to make a bond and other takes the sanctity of marriage.

That all being said, it made me feel good that the 2 end up together in the end. Sorry if you haven't seen the movie yet but it doesn't ruin anything for you, trust me. The guy in a real life scenario probably wouldn't have had any chance with the girl and she would have never noticed what a good guy and good father he was otherwise. Him and her both had played the cards they were dealt and just made the best of out of it. They ended up being happy with a happy family. My point why can't we be happy with what's in our lives? We only make the most of out of situations until we're forced to.

Paryushan 2007!!

I'll be blogging here for the next week so please check it out and check out this website so you can get info on stuff.

www.yja.org/blog

www.yja.org/paryushan2007

fire!!

My apartment complex almost burned down tonite. It sounds silly to say that but in reality, there was a pretty decent size fire the building adjacent to mine. A fire broke out and the alarms went off. Me thinking this another fire alarm prank or some fluke ringing I went to shut my window. 2 minutes later my roomate is banging on my door telling me it was a real fire.

So we run outside to investigate and there's people running all over the place and screaming. It was like downtown Bagdad or something. about 20 feet on the first floor from my roomates side of the apartment there was a pillar of black smoke going up into the air. I saw a bunch of people trying to get the emergency hose working with little success.

There was another 'drero'(a word I just made up combining drunk and hero) trying to run into the apartment and see if there was anyone inside. If you saw the flames you would understand why this guy wasn't thinking clearly. I can't prove that he was drunk but he was definitely looking to be a hero when there was no way he could be.

I took a few steps back to get away from the smoke and I saw one of my neighbor's children. They have 6 kids. 6 very respectable, very adorable, very friendly and cute kids. I saw the oldest son running around in a panic taking action. That's pretty commendable for a high school kid. But then I started wondering where they're parents were and if I should watch over them and get them away from the smoke.

All of a sudden my underneath neighbor's wife throws a hose at me so now I'm trying to get this hose hooked up and working and it takes me a few minutes because obviously the stress has caught up to me and I'm not moving as fast as my mind wants to. Somehow the flame goes down.

The fire department shows up. Everyone is wondering is someone is inside. I have to decide on if I should stay down and see or go up and avoid it. I do know that there is a black cat that lives in that apartment and I started getting sad. Imagine anyone getting trapped in a fire regardless what or who it is.

I'll only know tomorrow what happened. I'm just thankful from what I know is that no person was harmed. Hopefully no animals. I'm feeling much better now that the smoke is out of me and I will be getting up and inspecting every single alarm that goes off from now on.

mi vida loca

Out of all the people, I'm pretty sure my life is the craziest. Not that I live the craziest life or I have the most epic stories, but based on how opportunities and how things change so quickly.

2 weeks ago I was dying to get the opportunity to work this company www.greencentury.com . Doing what I think I want to do, Marketing Management. There is one thing though... this job would have taken me out of my comfort zone and put me squarely in I would consider, Hell's Kitchen - Boston, MA. The funny part is how I found this job randomly looking for investment opportunities in Green companies. Somehow I thought this was destiny for me and I when I followed up with a lot of ambition. I was told I wasn't what they were looking for.

Well, it made me think long and hard on what I wanted to do from that moment through the rest of my life. My doorstep was flooded with opportunities and my confidence was weak after Green Century dismissed me. So it was so hard to decide. Because the most obvious question was, well if I was willing to move to Boston for this job, then what would stop me from moving to San Fransisco for a similar opportunity if I can find it? Especially, with my roommate telling me that he was ready to move on it made me think, what the in the blue hell am I doing here in Los Angeles?

I tried to do some soul searching but business was so busy and so many things were happening I didn't get much of a chance to. So this has what has transpired.
Today, I just signed a 9 month lease with my current roommate (Thank God) that keeps me in LA until July 2008.
*My dad approached me on the opportunity to open up a franchise business in LA as his partner and I am in the process of researching locations and signing a contract.
*I have hired a recruiter/career specialist to find me a Marketing Management job.
*I taking our growing business and delegating to my business partners
*I am building partnerships and alliances in SoCal. Right now this is where my head lays and I shouldn't be attached to it, I'm just happy that I am here for now. When fate takes me wherever it takes me than that's fine.
*I have some amazing consulting opportunities that my future cloudy but bright because regardless something is going to pan out.
*I got sunburnt driving a convertible since my car has been is in the shop. I realized a couple things. I need a convertible or a motorcycle. And that I am so lucky to live where I do.
*I've put a lot of faith in that things will work out.