at a crossroads

So here I am... at a point where I have to decide what I'm going to do for the next few years. My options are to keep exploring, continue to do what I've been doing and feeling like I'm half-assing it. My other option is to throwing everything into one long-shot venture that might not give me the payout I deserve at the end of the day but might be the most full-filling. I'm trying to decide on if this is my destiny or not. I'm not sure....

For me to succeed at this, I have to know that this is my only option. In order to survive I would have to succeed. So that's the decision I'm trying to make right now. Its difficult not to procrastinate on choosing a path.