Sal Mubarak

Happy Diwali. It's the Indian New Year. It wasn't a very festive, minus the activities and jovial attitudes of the people around me. I'm less than 12 hours away from a flight to India via Tokyo. I'm nervous. 1 - because I don't like flying and 2- the uncertainty. I'm going to a cousin's wedding with just my father to parts of India I've never been to before. My hindi is very, very rusty and I made false promises to my chosen tutor that I my hindi would be perfected by the time I leave. And she... she hasn't spoken to me in over 2 weeks and hasn't spoken hindi to me in over a month. I'm subconscious about my accent when I speak and my verb conjugation. It's a weird insecurity but I can't explain it clearly.