history

When 2 people have a history, its the bond that ties them together for seemingly ever if they let it. I think that's dangerous. That attachment and the idealism (putting someone on a pedestal in comparison to others) holds people back. When I look back at those people that I had history with and I always thought the next time trying would be the charm. But we always faced the same problems. Its not bad to have history that is tied to good memories and beautiful moments. But when that history puts the vehicle in reverse, its hard to tell its a waste of time until way into the future, ironically.

There's a reason why people are in the past and when their brought into the present there's a decision to be made. When it boomerangs around its really refreshing to bring an old flame or an old friend back into your life. It's hard not be inviting unless it was too soon.

What I'm trying to say is you have to keep moving forward. Especially when life gets you down and that history is so comforting, things look like they only lead down that old path... You have to fight through all that and try to stay on that path. Yeah, its easy to feel like its bringing you back and the all reasons in the world start to avalanche into what is right. But really? In a clear head I know I had all the reasons in the world why it wouldn't work so what happened to logic?

ugh....