something wonderful happened

I was thinking from time to time today about my bestfriend and how we've drifted so far apart. Knowing that she's in Chicago, where I'll be in a couple days, if she even cared anymore to let me know what's going on with her or to inquire about me. We had exchanged some texts and some emails and it just left me feeling like things were not going to be the same anymore, like everything. Can you imagine when the only person in the world that completely understands you as a human being doesn't return your calls?? its a tremendous void to fill. That leads me to the next paragraph.

Something happened to me, I don't know what the origin of it was, but I decided with a strong-will that I was going to change the world around. I've been living as bottom-feeder living off my world and trying to adjust to its changes around me. All of a sudden, I said to myself, 'within 60 days you are going to transform yourself and there is no option'

I made a contingency plan, if something bad happens or something goes wrong, work harder, be stronger, don't lose focus, don't let your mind stray on those thoughts that suck my energy.

Somewhere around 10:30 I called my mom to tell her my uncle called me unexpectedly, we talked. It felt like so long I remember talking to my mom about family gossip and family news. My mother's mother, my nani, my heart is heading to Delhi on May 5th to interview for a visa. I had to ask her again to make sure I was understanding what I was hearing.

My heart felt just felt light, like so much had been lifted off of it. Tears starting welling up in my eyes when I asked my mom when will she be hear. My mom is a lot more reserved, maybe shes worried. I'm not. This is the best news I've gotten all year. When she sees me, she's going to see the BEST me.

If she doesn't come, then I'm going to her to show her what I've become. My plan is simple; restore balance to my life - knowledge, health, relationships, spiritual growth, finance. The second part it stay on my path and don't deviate for anything or anyone.

I got some really good things on my horizon right now so its not about trying for me anymore, its only about doing.