failure

I don't want to talk about it really. But yes the Suns lost and yes it happened the only way it could; with hope, then despair, then hope, then reality... That summarizes the flow of the game.

I had to spend hours on the phone with a friend from home just to feel better. I don't think I can watch game three. But its like a kid with a father who walked out on him and his mom told he went out for cigarettes. He keeps hoping that he's coming back, waiting by the door, peering out the window. The kid NEEDS something to look forward to, he needs to have a false sense of hope because without it his heart goes cold.

Its just basketball, and I'm sure tomorrow it wont eat at me like it does now, but you really have to understand when a city is ingrained in your personality, and a team's spirit is in soul. Yes, I'm that attached, just like most of the big sports fans. Right now, thats all I got really, so it affects me a little more than it should.

Anyways, baseball season started and my team is in first place there. I guess I have that.