rock bottom

I think yesterday must have been the absolute lowest I could go. If I'm ever in that kind of state again that I really, really need to reevaluate everything I'm doing. Anyways, I'm not sure how much I believe in rituals and all this kind of stuff but the priest at the temple said my stars in a cluster and there's one thing I can do and suddenly a huge positive change will happen my life. Hey, its cheaper than a shrink, if it works.

We will see how this thing goes but it really comes from a positive mindset. Refusing to lose and brushing off the all the bad shit and just keep walking.

Lately, I've been seeing what people do to make themselves happy. Its usually what they do in their spare time. Its really a fascinating to look at, overall I don't know how many of those things actually make people happy. Whatever floats boats. I use my freetime to keep myself from going crazy, and what does that tell me about what I'm doing with my regular time? That's where the change needs to come from.