my points of emphasis

There's a few things that I need to do get my life on A track. There's a few areas that the kid needs to pay the most obvious attention to; my health, my soul, my career, and my social life. I have to reidentify exactly who am I religiously. I've spent a lot of time making changes in my lifestyle and I lost what my intentions were. So I'm trying to find that mixture. I'm comfortable with my way of life and not feeling guilty because I'm not living up to others standards. I've been following a lot of rituals and things that I don't fully understand to feel closer to God or feel that God is watching over me. At the same time I made changes in my diet and in my behaviour to make me a better person. Ultimately, was I doing it for myself or for how others percieve me?

I'm flying home today to perform a ritual that is supposed to decluster the stars for me and things will get better according to the priest and all the believers. I guess I have to believe but I still have nothing to lose really so I'm excited about it.

As far as health, I'm going to drop the bills necessary for proper health insurance. I spent a ton of money on TVs, and cell phones, and other gadgets and I need to really spend it on whats necessary now.

For career, this one doesn't have an easy answer. I know what I want to do and what drives me so now I need to figure out how to get back to that point. I'm ony 26 and I've done so much in my life already. To me I always feel like I could've done more but all the lessons I've learned and experience I've gained should be enough. You win some you lose some and I'm the one that say syou learn more from failure than you do from success.

Socially, I'm finding myself again. I'm breaking out of my shell and starting to show that confidence and swagger that I've been known for. Its not an act, but I have been acting like that for a long time I feel like.

Whenever that cloud starts forming over my head I have to not get sucked into its gloom. I have actually have to believe that it is going to pass me over.