ranges

Everyone knows what the wide range of emotions we all have. And the majority of people only show that wide 'range' (call it what you want) to those we feel comfortable with, those who can bring down our walls. You ever get that feeling when you're with somebody, your closest friends, your significant other, your closest family members. When I say range of emotions, it includes a lot of other stuff, just things you would say, stuff you would do...

In my working life I operate in a small window and rarely do I deviate it from it. I can sense that people want more and they're trying to get to know me. I just can't get out of that window in a working environment. My best friends know me pretty well they've seen the entire repetoire. I just don't see then enough to even be myself like that.

The reason I'm even thinking about this is the range I've seen in others that I know very well. When you've seen the whole person, its tough to not question why that window has shrunk. Yeah things changes, relationship dynamics swing, I understand. But I can't stress how confusing it is when that range widens and shrinks inexplicably all over the place. When that window goes up and down its tough to judge where to stand. It's don't want to assume anything and you don't want to feel estranged but it can hurt sometimes....

I wonder what it is... The phrase, 'all you have to do is ask' is irrelevant here. Asking is an invitation to a tongue lashing or even worse; nothing. Two tears in a bucket... you know the rest.