i'm 26

Now that I'm on the back end of my twenties trying to figure out where the hell the time went, I realize that these years should be celebrated.

That's an entirely different philosophy than what I had about 2 weeks ago. 2 weeks ago I wanted to forget this day and buy myself in the ground just get away from it. I don't think many people like the idea of getting older because then we start questioning our lives. We see how things didn't turn or how we got to where we were and maybe we don't like it. I'm indifferent about my own life right now shockingly.

When I over think it, I have a million reasons to hide from the world for a day and pity myself. But really? I don't think that's who I am. I'm older, I'm wiser, I'm tougher than a year ago. Life isn't so bad and career-wise things are in a great place.

I try not think about where I was a year ago at this time. I had a good year last year and now I'm in my 26th. I still have a lot to accomplish and a lot to experience. I think one thing I learned this past year is you can't get too high or too low because you don't know what's around that bend.

I'm going to take the day off tomorrow to do whatever I feel like. I think my own world is ok with that. Since I've been slaving away I think I can retreat for a weekday to enjoy my solitude. Maybe I'll get a massage or drink beer all day and watch old tv re-runs.

I know I got a good year coming up.