What I've Done

God has always sent me signs, putting strange things right in front of me so I can see for myself what it is that I'm supposed to aware of. Consequently those things change me. After all that's happened I wonder if interpreted those things right.

Today I was insulted beyond my high capacity for insults. My ex-girlfriend went nuclear on me and let it rain down until there was silence to make sure nothing could survive. Nothing did.... In a moment's notice, I lost a lot of respect for her. For what it's worth I really didn't have it in me to say much back. What's the point, now? Karma can be a bitch. The line was clearly drawn and the past 1 year of my life is history. No sense in looking back anymore to draw anything positive from it. At this point I wish I could go back to the beginning and change it all.

I don't think I'm worse off than I was a year ago, but things have changed. It seems like none of it was real. I put up with so much unnecessary bullshit for my own unexplainable reasons.

No I'm no Einstein, and I'm not California Senator Diane Feinstein... But I do know this .. The Ms. Mehta I knew doesn't exist, not sure if she ever did.

I'm finally free.