motivation

Motivation has been my major obstacle in anything I've done in life. I should say anything I haven't done in life. For whatever the reason is, I talk myself out of doing things and make excuses that allow me to live with not completing a task. Since I've pinpointed this, and I also know that I can do anything IF I WANT TO. I don't want to sound extremely arrogant but I know have ability to do anything I want to. You have to feel powerful inside before others will believe you are.

It ties in with my next thought. You screw up a few times and people thing that's who you are. I was constantly criticized by an exgirlfriend who saw any little thing that I did as a said it was who I am with major character flaws. It really gets drilled home that way and I didn't know what to do for the longest time. I tried to change, I tried to just live with it albeit uneasily. But now I'm content with improving my life on my terms. If I'm not motivated to do somethign I ask myself, "Is it worth it?, Do you need to do this?, What will I learn?"