R O I

I've reached a strange phase in life - it might be a simple phase - where I've become very picky about who I hang out with and what I do. I've become less tolerable for people who don't fit into my circle and less motivated to making NEW friends. It's been growing trend of mine. It's not that I hate mankind or I don't want to meet new people but people just run together. That's probably why I always forget names and faces...

Here's a good example: This weekend I have a birthday party at a club I have to go to. I don't really want to go, because we're not that good friends, it's in a club (I don't like to go clubs unless its a special event), and I'm not really into hanging out in an Asian club.

So I'm kinda stuck, because my bestfriend is dragging me there and this friend's cousin is one my BOYS from B-School, CMS trip, and gym rat. I haven't seen the guy since he started work in October and I gotta see him. To add to the normal stress of going somewhere where you don't want to be and hanging out in atmosphere you don't want to be in, I have to get up early to go to the temple the next morning.

GREAT!! What's my return on investment for going? Not very high. See, when there's so much opportunity to go out and hang out with people, I need to know what my ROI is going to be. This party I'm pretty much obligated to go, but I'm ok with that because I'm getting to hang out with my best friend and see an old friend.

I've become bored with my life. I don't want to hang out with anybody I just want to stay in my apartment and sit on my computer and work or do something productive. I'm not even really looking forward to March Madness. Usually, its my favorite time of the year and right now I haven't even started doing any research on it. I haven't bet on sports in months. It seems like ever since my girlfriend broke up with me, my life has been filled with negativity. It's been brought on me... I'll own up to some of it. But most of it just happened to be a coincidence I guess. And I tried so hard to break out of this funk. I tried to be in the present and and move on. And life just keeps coming at me with more and more.

So I slowed my run down to a crawl and I'm just taking it as it comes at me. Nothing else I can do.