im on tv??

Dont know what that means...
I should get my own reality show. I don't want one of those dramatic ones like on MTV True Life. I want one of those wacky stupid ones like on E! But honestly, my life right now doesn't have the dramatic flair and spontaneous adventures that I used to have.

Anyways...

Settling down or settling for...

Is it just ironic that these 2 cliches start with the same verb??

I'm an extremely picky person. Most people wouldn't realize it with the way I'm nonchalant about choices in certain aspects of life, but I really am picky and indecisive. When it comes to clothes, what I want to eat, what I want to do on the weekends, I eliminate options with the most eccentric and crazy reasons.

So when it comes it relationships, nothing is different here. From being with my former girlfriend, I realized why it never worked out with others. Even those times when I wanted it to work out I would get mad at myself for being so picky, but I couldn't help it. I still can't....

At some point I am going to have to settle down. I might have to settle for someone too... You see, when I started out with my with former girlfriend - there's was a lot of things that I had to accept about her that weren't what I thought I was ideal to me. Little things that would people would deem ridiculous. There was always things that made me think I am settling for something less??

What happens more and more over time I've realized what's most important to me. It's not that I was settling for less because of my own petty preferences and beliefs, I was being priviledged with more than I could deserve.

I wish things could be so easy and decisions weren't so complicated. I wish that we could see past all our issues and take the value of what is in front of us. If only I was a simple man....