i love redundancy, i love redundancy, i love redudancy

If you add up everything that Jesus said in the Bible, it comes to about 2 hours. He gets a lot of mileage on that doesn't he?

So from about the beginning of July to the middle of the February. I've been able to extrapolate a lot of bloggage from my past relationship... I said the same shit over and over and twisted it around tied it in a knot. I've killed this topic but in such a verbose manner that it never seems to go away.

So this is what I call my apollogetic; a defense of my faith. I want to history to show how I saw things and how I felt.

Here's the truth to everything atleast the way I see it:

We met not by chance, but for a reason. I truly believe that. I need to believe that. It wasn't so obvious but we were drawn to each other. People knew about us before we did! They say they could tell from how we interacted. (I shake my head) The connection was so obvious to me now but it wasn't so clear to me then. We sat and talked one night in at bar in NYC and I knew at that point that I was really attracted to her. It was way beyond her million dollar smile and her fiesty personality.

The phone call frequency increased afterwards. I remember I was on a minigolf course in Orlando with my brother and a 8 stroke lead heading into the back 9 and I ended up losing because I was on the phone with her. And she knew I was losing and it was because of her and she didn't care... The first time perhaps where my sacrificing for her started.

Things got intense and I knew I was with somebody with ideals and expectations that were from somebody younger, growing up in a perfect environment. To accept me and who I am and everything that that entails takes somebody with an open mind and forgiving nature. Somebody who can see past flaws and my mistakes and the differences. She did that for a while but buried these reasons that would come up later.

This PART ONE of an Epic... To Be Continued...