a million things....

there's a million things why i should look in the mirror wish i was somebody else. I was thinking about the movie, "Alfie". Where at the end when the girl that he wants to be with after he's decided out of all the women he knew, he found the one he cared the most about and could see a future with. Anyways, he catches her with another man, which , wasn't unethical considering their casual relationship and it was understood. But he still was hurting and he had to ask why? What did this guy have that he didn't? Well if you've seen the movie you know it was arbitrary. In my case, there's a million things that I don't have...