hitting rock bottom

I had a lot of friends pick me up in the last few days, which I really am grateful for.

Quote of the day: "she broke it off with you? I don't believe that - she doesn't know what she'll be missing"

(one of friends that I grew up with and came out of character for this person too, which was very nice)

So at some point you realize that the only place you can go is up. I realized that today at some point in the afternoon on G-Chat when the conversation started to get ugly and the person on the other line didn't have any more warmth for me. I'm left thinking if this whole thing is real or not. I dont know...

So I think at this point I must accept blame for my expectations and feelings. I got attached more than I should've. I had expectations and I thought were going down a path together but it fell apart. It was funny because in the end she was trying to give me advice. Telling me you shouldn't make yourself so vulnerable to people. What I am blogging for? Read posts here dating back. I spent most of life trying to hide behind masks and telling people I was one way and being another.

I'd rather be vulnerable to the world. I don't really have anything to hide anymore. I'm really not afraid of much. People in this world - my friends - have lost more than I have. I'm thankful for what I have and what I've been blessed with. In time all things will make sense.

So let me pick myself, dust myself off, and not worry about HER.