hello and goodbye

All I got left is stinkin' memories.

You ever had someone who knew and you thought you knew, talk to you like a stranger?? It's like an unexpected slap in face or a kick to the groin. It has its degrees but if it's someone that has the impact in your life like the one that I refer to in my blog, then you can understand how surreal your life feels after that.

I don't think I can feel any more stupid than I feel at this moment. I'm completely OUT OF THE PICTURE. There's nothing in her heart for me. She's made room for whoever or whatever, which was pretty clear.

There's nothing left to say or do, or even think about. There's alot of things I thought about doing today. There were so many of them, so I decided that a passive nature was best. I'll let the universe work itself out, and I don't need to any extra negativity, I got enough as it is. I'm a fool on so many levels. But I'm one of those people always trying to ice skate uphill.

I don't see myself as a victim, I see myself more like the village idiot. Things change fast that's life. I'd rather be a lion for a day than a lamb who lives forever....