the garbage man and the lottery ticket

"The garbage man who wins the lottery, does not throw out the winning ticket..."

One of my favorite quotes for so many reasons. You know I said the same thing to my former girlfriend when she was doubting things and felt insecure about our relationship. With or without the ticket the garbage man is still a garbage man. He can't change that. So the metaphor comes full circle!!

Ever since the beginning I've been letting her down. This is me taking accountability for everything. The more and more and we got to know each other, the more she realized I was just a "garbage man." It's like that song by R.Kelly, "When a woman's fed up" - There ain't nuthin u can do about it.

I tears me up inside knowing that she broke up with me and she's happier and stress free. That's the complete opposite of a man is supposed to do for a woman. I can't help but feel inadequate and my confidence is completely shaken. Other than that I'm OK.