Life's a whore

That's what my bestfriend told me today.

The person that I was currently seeing changed our relationship tonight. I still have a very heavy heart but I know that will be ok. It was very intense 4 months but I can say that I was always myself. She's telling me things are different but I don't think they are.

I've tried to get inside her head to see if I can figure it out. But I know she's scared and I know that she really, really cares about me. I know how I feel and I know that, that isn't going to change right now. That's what makes this so hard for me. I don't usually open up like this and I don't make strong connections.

Everything was good Monday, Tuesday things were discussed. Thursday the train wrecked. I am a fighter and a scrapper and I will do anything for her. But out of respect to her I am going to do anything right now.

Changes were made and I had no control over them. My heart tells me one thing and her head says something else, but her heart isn't decided? Does that mean that she is right or I am right? Can we both be right?

I wish I could go back and fix all the things that I've done wrong and fix them now. Would it even matter now?