i call this group therapy

I use this blog as my group therapy but then again I don't hear anything back from anyone. The people in Westford, Nashua, and Lawrence read the blog and I hope they are getting something out of it. I know I definitely am. Obviously LA is my big hit but I international reach in Germany and Bombay. I can check through my google analytics account. I would highly suggest it for anyone wanting to track stats on a website or webpage.

Anyways, back to my boring usualy topic of dealing with my relationship that just ended. I'm taking some time to not even talk or communicate with her so that I can figure how things are without her. It might sound like I have the right idea, but my intentions sound strange. Basically, the whole idea is her and I both to search our hearts and make sure that that it is what it is. I would rather her be happier with someone else if I make can't make her happy enough. It's a no-brainer for me. I know things would have be

I know I can't convince her that things will work out. I can't make her see that people comprimise if that person is worth it. If its not worth it, its not worth it. Its a tough pill to swallow but I'm washing it down with a glass of wine as we speak... LOL. I've said my piece over and over and internally I know won't accept that things don't work because people are different. I wouldn't be alive if that were true.

Anyways, its like that part of the movie when the something bad happens to the hero where the bad stuff happens the guy changes forever. And then he goes on a rampage and things end up alright in the end but obviously its not the same... Well the rampage im sure won't be like in the Rambo movies but it will be like a combination of partying, spiritual growth, business success etc... Some may sound contradicting but it comes in phases.